Got a massage this morning. She recommended yoga, which I am not fond of (mostly because I can't seem to get into the poses and no one explains what it all means so I feel very left behind). Anyway, my back, neck, everything . . . are all pretty fucked up.

Didn't do anything except sit with my toxins. Wanted brownies, but didn't succomb.

Then we took a walk in the night wind. So that would be maybe . . . 20 or 25 minutes of exercise to my way of thinking, because the passive stretching in the massage counts, right?

I tried to stretch this morning but the dog thought it was a game and kept batting at my arms and getting in my way.

Went to Pilates. Guess that gives me hmmm. . . 10 minutes on the elliptical then an hour in Pilates. Plus maybe five minutes of stretching in the morning . . . 75 minutes. Sad thing is, I weigh even MORE!!! Scale said fucking 121 at the gym. Why do I care? I never used to weight myself!

I am going to go buy a jumprope today. I mean it. In fact, I may just buy a bunch of them as Christmas presents especially since our local jumprope company is special.

Did the pm stretch -- don't think I got anything else in.

Well, I failed to get in 30 minutes -- does walking downtown and back to eat with Cedar, Gypsy, and Tucker count? That would be about fifteen minutes of walking.

I did 30 minutes of this (Amazon.com: DVD: Bellydance Fitness for Beginners - Basic Moves & Fat Burning (1999)) today. The basic moves thing.

In a newsletter from my fitness center, she broke it down into something simple: 30 minutes of exercise a day. She made it sound even more doable by breaking those 30 minutes down into 10 minute increments, "for example, a 10-minute walk in the morning, 10 minutes of climbing stairs in the afternoon and another 10-minute walk after dinner."

I think I should buy a jumprope so I can do quick ten-minute cardio chunks. I read in some magazine about Madonna or someone famous and healthy (because of course, they have the money to be healthy and yes, I do believe physical health is easier to attain if you're rich which I am not) jumping rope. The article pointed out how jumproping is inexpensive and handy.

I felt like I lost weight over our Thanksgiving vacation, but in fact, I still weigh 119 pounds which is exactly where I started weeks ago when I made a silly goal to get down to 107 by the beginning of January. Bah!

Anyway -- I'll try to get 30 minutes in every day then, okay?

Today I got 12 minutes on the elliptical, and then spent an hour in Pilates (but I only actually did about two thirds of the stuff -- I was hungry, shaking, and spent). I tried the stairmaster but there is something completely counterintuitive about those machines -- I had to get off of it. So I'd say I got 50 minutes of exercise today.

Over vacation I bought an instructional stretching dvd. My body has been feeling completely fucked up.