Thursday, September 24, 2009
TastyTrixie.com = BLOG!
Update your links & bookmarks! Here's my new blog address:
Finally! I melded my blog and the free area of my porn site right onto the landing page of TastyTrixie.com.
I know, it's totally annoying when people change blog links but since 2001 this is only the second time I've done it (the first time being years ago when I switched from blogspot hosting to placing my blog right here). Also, the new RSS feed
actually works as far as showing an excerpt!
If you have feedback on the new design or notice anything buggy, post comments here
. I'm aware of a lot of things I need to fix & flesh out, but maybe not others.
Labels: accomplishments, announcements
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
We're about to head out the door soon (only an hour later than planned) and won't be home until Friday. There's no power or running water where we're going, so we won't be responding to email, broadcasting cams, etc. Not that you need running water for those things, but you DO need power.
I'll try to tweet
and post twitpics
if we're in range for such things.
Keep your fingers crossed that we get a bunch of pretty porn shot! Weather looks great and the forecast is for no rain EVEN THOUGH WE'RE HEADING INTO THE BOWELS OF THE RAINFOREST! Perfection . . . Friends with our phone numbers: if it seems like someone read my blog and decided to hack me while we were gone, please give us a call; it often seems like suspicious shit happens whenever we're gone and I announce it here.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Calm before the EXPLOSION!!!
Wondering why there's been a deathly quiet here on my blog? It's because I'm revamping in a major way and don't want to post here and then have to manually import into the REVAMP.
I hope you won't have to wait much longer; I've promised myself not to wait until it's *perfect* to unveil it (partly because that won't actually be possible; there are some things I can't fix until it goes live), especially since we'll be launching DeliaTS.com around the same time (the other reason why things are quiet here - we're juggling multiple "projects" which is typical, but they're feeling very urgent right now and sweet jesus I can't even type about it, trying to convey the enormity of pressure, without starting to hyperventilate).
As usual, tons of things I *want* to blog about (like how Conan will never be the same anymore and I can't stand his new set -- really IMPORTANT things that make me cry myself to sleep or keep me up all night lamenting the passage of time and inevitability of change). Of course I'm still updating inside with porn for our members, but we have GOT to get this other shit done. So you can look at pretty fun things! I know you're sick of hearing me bitch & moan about how outdated our sites are and wonder what is TAKING so long for us to just fix them already! I really wish I were skilled enough to snap my fingers and have it be done and over.
Anyway, we are going to be gone (much longer than I *want* to be gone) this week trying to shoot a bunch of porno in the woods so looks like it will be mid-September before you can see some of our work come to fruition. And actually be entertaining or mildly amusing or more absorbing than posts like this one.
Thanks for sticking with me, friends, foes and fans! I hope you will like our new site designs better than I like Conan's new set with all those light blue backgrounds with all those distracting LINES.
I just *know* what goes around, COMES around and for every time I've shrieked at the tv screen about that annoying frosted section of plexiglass behind Conesy's head or those flimsy-looking wooden borders around his super mario bros. screen
with their annoying verticality and stick-ness, there will be ten people who HATE the way I'm changing up my site. It's not soothing! It's too busy! IT IS DIFFERENT, THEREFORE BAD! And holy shit, it's totally not sexy at all! Poetic justice for all. Or at least for Trixie. ON THE WAY!Oh dear GOD! THE LINES ARE NOT STRAIGHT! The lines behind Conan are not straight! They are not running perpendicular to the bottom of the frame!! Oh, Jesus KILL ME -- those motherfucking lines are not straight, or if they are for a moment I know it only takes the slightest movement for everything to be out of alignment once again!! And that wooden base! IT'S TOTALLY NOT RUNNING PARALLEL TO THE BOTTOM OF THE FRAME! THE HORROR!!!!
Yes, the thoughts in my brain are TOTALLY FUCKING ANNOYING. And now you have some idea of why it takes me forever to finish anything that involves building things that are supposed to have straight lines. I can't abide things being out of whack in relation to each other, yet I'm not smart or talented or patient enough to bring them INto alignment.
And that, my friends, is why I often have to lock myself in a dark room and bury myself under mounds of pillows to calm down.Seriously, though; all of those lines are REALLY ill-advised for shooting any kind of moving pictures. And while I can actually tolerate them if I try, it's impossible for me to actually RELAX with that mess of crookediness happening on the television screen.
Labels: announcements, mundane, priorities, rants, television, work
Saturday, July 04, 2009
4th Feeding You (PICS)
The Fourth of July isn't my absolute favorite holiday, but I do enjoy it a lot -- especially small town fireworks displays like ours. We also bought a small tabletop propane grill today to celebrate the American way with cheeseburgers and replace our rusted out charcoal grill.In keeping with a celebration of our great capitalist country:
I hate to break it to those of you who read my blog through a feed reader
, but you'll have to click through now and actually VISIT my blog to read my posts from start to finish (if you want to). I actually set my feed settings years ago BEFORE I actually started reading other people's blogs through a feed reader myself so until recently I didn't realize how unlikely it is for anyone to see my blog presented in all of its obnoxious glory when they can have it generically spoon fed to them through a reader.
I totally understand how much easier on the eyes it is to read through a feed reader but other than that, it's not very hard to click through to the original post and see it presented with the personality of the blogger who wrote it (me, in this case). After about a year of using a feed reader (I use Google Reader
) to keep up with my favorite blogs I've noticed I feel more detached from the people who write them. It's like swallowing food without chewing it -- just gulping it down. I also don't like that some elements in my posts aren't properly displayed, if they're displayed at all (example: flash or video elements).
On top of that, my blog doesn't make as much money as it used to before the rise in popularity of feedreaders. Of course there are a number of reasons for that, but the fact that more people are reading me while fewer people are seeing advertisements for my sites and other sites I promote PROBABLY plays a pretty big part. I have never been one of those people who feels the need to apologize for wanting my work on the web to make some money so I'm not going to start now, especially since I think most of my selling is pretty soft/laid-back. I don't shove advertisements down readers' throats constantly, but I am also not going to keep throwing away my real estate when I can least afford to do so. I want people to be reminded every time they read my blog of my little amateur porn empire and crappy design "skills". Every time people read my blog, I want them to see my picture in the sidebar. I do not want people to see me as something contained within google or feedburner or whatever-the-hell. It's depersonalizing and also just not very smart on my part as a webwhore.
I know for SOME people the whole point of using a reader to consume blogs is getting all the content in one place. For me, using a reader is actually more about being alerted when posts are made to my favorite blogs without having to compulsively click and refresh a million links in a list to see if my beloved bloggers have updated yet. It's also about being able to organize, favorite and label blogs and posts. Reading other people's blogs has always felt very intimate to me and I want it to keep being that way; I don't like the way my reliance on Google Reader has made all the blogs I used to recognize on sight conform to the same look and feel. I've also hardly added any new blogs to my lineup because I'm not visiting people's blogs and clicking on their links anymore. I'm totally missing out! So yeah -- I'm just not going to give readers the option anymore to ignore my sidebars and shit. Plplplplplpl!!
Just to rub salt in your wounds, I added a gigantic flash animated Fleshlight
banner over there. BECAUSE EVERYONE WITH A DICK SHOULD HAVE ONE and it makes me totally hot to look at those kinds of things being played with or even just presented on display (see also my entry on Tiny Fake Pussies
). If I find a less obnoxious banner that I like just as much that shows some "action", I will replace it, though. Or maybe if someone says that it gave them a seizure.
Anyhoo, here are a few little images from the video we posted yesterday for members:
Labels: announcements, money, PHOTOS, PORNOGRAPHY, technical, webwhore insights
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Schedule Change for IDOL!!!
A quick announcement for members and fans of our webcam shows: I moved Wednesday night's shows to Friday night. Why? Because I realized they were scheduled at the same time as the American Idol finale and with us on the west coast there could be people in our chatrooms who'd already watched it and I CANNOT ABIDE HEARING SPOILERS.
This is especially true with tv the past two or three months which has been exceptionally good to my fat American mind. Dollhouse, Gossip Girl, Top Model, Idol, Hell's Kitchen . . . I've been eating the cheese and acting like a sucker tearing up on command. The competition shows are so much better when you like all of the finalists. We might not be having a lot of sex, but who wants to watch us fucking on our spycams when you can watch me crying and squealing like a sissy-girl over CHUCK AND BLAIR and ADAM AND KRIS and ALLISON AND TEYONA!?! It's a more degrading scene than if I invited a gang of carnies over and gave their greasy unwashed asses enthusiastic rim jobs on cam with a needle half-full of junk sticking out of my arm. Now THAT'S entertainment! Oh Chuck those pink flowers and your green coat Blair and that dress and I worship and adore you and your stockings too yumyumyum I love it when you cry you're so beautiful when you weep and I love you TOOOOOO!
As if that wasn't enough, as a bonus for our voyeurs tonight I also cried watching Dolly Parton sing "Backroads Barbie" AND I cried earlier this afternoon when I finished reading The Westing Game
(how did I miss that as a youngster? IT ROCKS!).
Being on a higher-estrogen birth control pill is so sweeeeeeeeeeeet. Sweet and salty with my tears, like a big bag of kettle korn.
Other than that I'm working on a simple (but time-consuming) revamp of the free area of TastyTrixie.com. So I can maybe hope to, you know, make some sales. So far this year has been full of optimism because I finally figured out how fucked up my endocrine system has been and how sick I was. It's frustrating, though, that even though I feel way better, my life didn't instantly become perfect once I started feeling better physically. It's like I have years worth of old work to do to get caught up let alone move forward. That's been pretty depressing on top of the economy (I know many of you are feeling my pain or worse in that department). I'm constantly making steps to improve, though, and feel massively blessed to have the awesomest girlfriend in the world
and also feel the support of people who know me online, especially our members.
I still have a long way to go, but I am becoming a more patient person. More patient with myself and the world and everyone in it. You still wouldn't call me "patient", but I know I am MORE patient than I was a year ago. That's enough for me to be proud of today.And even with all of that reading and tv watching and a good stretch this morning, I still worked eight concentrated hours and twenty-seven minutes. How do I know that? BECAUSE I AM KEEPING TRACK.
Labels: announcements, depression, emotions, health, hormones, money, television, webcam shows, work
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Almost Out the Door
We're getting ready to spend a couple of nights shooting in one of our favorite local places so our spycams at home will be mostly-dead except when we come home to let the dog out, pick up things we forgot, etc.
I made an appointment for next week to make my hair blonde FOR REAL and this time I will leave no room for any misinterpretation. EVERY SINGLE STRAND OF HAIR ON MY HEAD MUST BE BLONDE. Not all the same shade, but all unambiguously blonde.
The week after that we're going to be gone for four days traveling, shooting, seeing Delia
's doctor, and maybe taking a day off for ourselves, too. We're only making plans to see one person while we're gone, someone we're shooting with/haven't shot with before. I have a hard time balancing socializing, shooting, and staying sane so usually I sacrifice the socializing when I know I can't handle it all. I honestly do not understand how other people are able to squeeze in so much time with other people. It's beyond me, but still I hate all the missed opportunities to see people we like/love.
I'm reserving my scanty social juices for two things over the next six weeks or so: spending time with AmberLily and BigD before they move away from us
, and spending time with family when my second nephew is born next month (during an extremely inopportune time; the H00d Canal Bridg3 will be closed, severing our most direct route to Seattle.
Between that and the usual stuff, I'll try to post more interesting blog entries. For really real!
Labels: announcements, family, friends, mundane, Pacific Northwest, Seattle, travel, work
Sunday, April 05, 2009
New Look for My Blog
Here it is (kinda)! Wider and fleshier in 2009.
The main thing I want to point out is in the left sidebar: a contact form for bloggers who want to exchange links
(or who've been linking to me forever and want to bring it to my attention). I know my blogroll is outdated and there are tons of people who are linking to me (or were, until they gave up on me) but since I so rarely check my stats (and the site I used for years to track stats took a dive last year so I kind of gave up completely at that point) I just don't know about it. Now I have a more systematic way of being notified and following through. I hope my bloggy colleagues will make use of it!
I still have a work to do (updating the FAQs, adding and subtracting links, updating the blogroll, etc.), the code is REALLY ugly (I don't have any plans to fix that any time soon), and it doesn't look at all "web 2.0", but all I care about is that it works and is slight improvement over the old blue blog. I actually REALLY hate three column layouts with the content in the middle because I'm totally distracted by the shit in the sidebars. Unfortunately I didn't want to spend more than eight hours on this so I just kept it simple and assumed most people aren't as easily distracted as I am (and most people are using feedreaders now anyway - maybe).
After I clean this up some more I need to move onto redesigning the whole free area of my site. I'm feeling overwhelmed by the task(s), but it has to be done. I might end up going with A LOT of white space which will be effective for surfers and a good challenge for me (should be simpler, but with my tendency to stack one mess on top of another, maybe not).
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, links, mundane, work
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Squish in the House
Voyeur heads up: my sister and nephew came over yesterday and are staying until sometime tomorrow (Thursday) so most of our cams are down or cloaked with the exception of our office cams and all of our audio is off until they go home.
Delia and I are actually going to leave them here alone to go to her laser hair removal appointment and maybe to do some panty shopping. I kind of want to see Coraline but don't think we'll want to stay away that long/miss out on family time.
Anyway, cams will be back to normal sometime tomorrow!
Labels: announcements, family, spycams
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
You don't need me to tell you that times are financially tough right now for a lot of people. You might be curious, though, whether or not recessions and looming depressions have an effect on our porn site sales. The answer? Yes, sales have been a little harder for us to make but overall I feel much more secure than I would in almost any other industry. The main sign we've seen that people's wallets are thin is that we get more denied credit cards.
My main financial concerns right now are not about falling sales, they're just about having finally reached our limit, unfortunately right at the time when banks and everyone else have reached theirs. I try not to feel a sense of shame or failure about my debt load regardless of how our country tells us that we little people are to blame for overextending ourselves or for being given loans and lines of credit we somehow didn't deserve. Our only mistake was being born poor while extremely unscrupulous banking bigwigs are bailed out for fucking people anally with insanely high interest rates. Example: it cracks me up that Citibank not only gets away with raising my interest rate and leveling late charges against me for sending a payment in on time that I accidentally wrote for fifty-seven cents less than the minimum payment that month (YES I have written them letters to no avail), but taxpayers get to foot the bill to save their fucking asses.
I'm getting off track.
Point is, after filing our taxes in October (yes, totally late) and maxing ourselves out like crazy we simply need to make more sales. Really, there is no excuse for us not to be making much more money at this point except that we tend to focus more on keeping our members happy than on actually, you know, FINDING MORE MEMBERS. It would be nice if we could do it all, but at this point we need to cut back on some things and rearrange others, at least until we meet some financial goals. So here are a couple of changes we/I are making:*REALISTIC NUMBER OF WEBCAM SHOWS EVERY OTHER WEEK.
Delia and I have been doing an insane number of shows for too many years: around twenty a month between the two of us. Most girls or couples with sites like ours who actually do live webcam shows do one or two a week, so maybe three to eight shows a month. Frankly it was sucking way too much sexual energy out of our relationship, leaving us very little free time to be spontaneous or go on shooting sprees or, you know, take a day or two off here and there.
We're now scheduling a couple days of webcam shows a couple times a month/every other week. It still averages out to at least two shows a week this way, but that's still less than what we have been doing and will give us more breathing room in-between to shoot videos and have recreational sex with each other.
Doing fewer camshows will also open up time to promote our sites in other ways; the truth is that the cam networks stopped being good places to get new members a long time ago. Even the girls who put on great shows and bend over backwards to be great orgasmic little entertainers do not make great sales because of those webcam shows. I will save explaining why for a different blog entry, but suffice to say right now there are more efficient ways of bringing in new sales; at a time like now we simply need to be more efficient.*FEWER HOURS IN CHAT
I really really love getting to know our members and think an active chatroom with a readily-available hostess is a really awesome feature to have on a porn/spycam site. I've had many awesome conversations in chat and gotten to know people I consider friends. Unfortunately, I probably spent way too much time in spycam chat over the years when I should have been focusing more on marketing my site. Now it's at the point where I really don't have a choice and need to spend those hours promoting our sites (especially Delia's because it outsells mine three to one).
I hate to say it, but I just don't have enough members to justify scheduling so many hours in chat. I've tried to find ways to make it work, and I feel like the same small handful of people are coming in just so I don't feel bad sitting in there alone. Combined with being burned out from all the camshows and being under pressure in other ways, I'm also just not as energetic an entertainer as I once was, anyway, so it's probably not a very enticing feature anymore. I am, however, continuing to pay for our members-only chatroom (the plugin is only $12.50 a month, but still) and am popping in there every so often and scheduling chats here and there. I've also added a separate twitter feed on the spycam, chat and shows pages to notify people of upcoming chats and shows and spycam stuff.
I've made a goal for myself that once Delia has 750 members and I have 500 members, I will add 15+ hours of chat per month
back into the schedule as long as we can maintain those numbers and people seem to enjoy the chats. I know that 1250 members sounds like a lot, but in the grand scheme of things it's inexcusable that we don't have that many and more members right now. When I see the way other porn sites have tons of members and offer so much less than we do, it really makes me mad at myself because there's no reason we cannot be comfortable, debt-free and have the resources we need to make our sites better.
I just can't justify doing as much as we've been doing and staying so deeply in debt. I'm getting too old for it and it's taking too much of a toll on me. I need to buckle down and sell the fuck out of our sites, especially Delia's because she has much less competition.*LOOSEY-GOOSEY UPDATES
For about five years I was very rigid about my update schedule for members, posting something new every week, and for many years on the exact same DAY each week. I still feel like that's the ideal way to do things (scheduled updates one or more times a week, depending on whether or not the site has anything else going for it).
Once we made our sites all-access (join one you get them all) I tried to relax a little on that and am finally feeling less anal about it. Now I am focused on our network of sites added ten or more new things each month, which isn't two hard considering that we have DeliaCD
(which is paralyzed right now, but I digress). Still, I have been asking too much of myself and not really giving myself the opportunities to excel at what I do best and WANT to do most at any given time. When I see other sites that I think are great (and so do their members) and they don't get all crazy freaking out on themselves for not updating like clockwork, I have to think I'm just sabotaging myself with self-criticism and essentially also disrespecting the work my colleagues do; if it's good enough for them, why isn't it good enough for me?
This was especially apparent to me when AmberLily joined our network; it was a sudden thing, so we didn't plan on it by having a bunch of our own content queued up ready to go while we did the things we needed to do to help get her site up on our server and attached to us. It wasn't that anything I did was particularly HARD, but it did take a lot of hours making phone calls, designing a tour, negotiating stuff, etc. Lots of little things that made me happy to do, but meant I didn't have time to do other things. I *should* have said, "hey members! This month I won't be posting new updates but AmberLily's joining us and you will have her entire site to explore to make up for it!" But I didn't do that.
From now on, I NEED to do that; realize I can't do it all, and be proud of what I *do* do, and satisfied that it is enough instead of thinking all will be lost unless I run myself into the ground. The opposite is proving to be true (duh): all will be lost if I continue to run myself ragged. I'm totally out of gas, which is sad especially when there are a number of women who would like to join our network of sites and I simply don't have time and energy to invest in working with them right now.
There are tons of things I've neglected to do that I need to get taken care of, like redesigning the free areas and blogs for pretty much all of our paysites. How many years have I had the same confusing design on this blog and my site that is now totally outdated with pages of broken things, old pictures, etc.? It's just unacceptable. And no, I am not listening to anybody who gives me shit about all my other little "projects" and how if I didn't waste time with them I could finish all these neglected necessaries. Bullshit. If I didn't allow myself to go off on tangents, then half of the reward of working for myself would be totally fucking DELETED. Whatever makes me want to do those things is the same thing that makes me good at the things people PAY for.
Oh, and speaking of what people pay for, I still really miss doing phone sex, private shows and the potential to do other one-on-one stuff; another set of things I'd like to mix back into my life soon or when we meet some of those money goals.
Basically I am *considering* posting fewer updates to the TastyTrixie members area for a few months or until I feel/look healthier. Lately I've been doubling up on them/posting "late", mostly because I haven't been happy with a lot of my content and sit on updates until I have something "better" to go with them. In fact, that's what I've been doing with a set of pictures that I edited this week and really kind of hate.
Mostly I guess I need to stop making promises and just focus on making content. And even more than that, SALES. Note: it's not that our content isn't good enough to make sales or that we don't have enough of it or that our members-only areas are lacking; that isn't the problem at all. It's simply that the webmasters promoting most porn sites don't know how to promote us, or have never heard of us because we have no advertising budget, or it's just not worth it to them to promote us because we can't pay them as much as these big sites do (yet another subject for another blog entry) or we don't give them enough free content in the format they like with a lot of bells and whistles and things to make it super-easy (I totally understand why this puts us at a disadvantage).
I know this is a really long post and maybe a total bore to most people, but I feel like I needed to communicate this stuff in writing and by posting it, make a commitment to it myself. Long story short, we need to focus on meeting some attainable, yet very immediately necessary sales goals. I have to close two of my credit card accounts before they raise the interest rates to some even-more god-awful amount; this shit is getting down to the wire and we simply have to stop living on the edge.
One of my favorite books about "unschooling" tells readers that when you allow a young person to escape the lock-step of traditional schools, the person usually needs three months or more to get it out of their system and have their natural curiosity well up enough to be motivated to take advantage of other learning opportunities. Note: there are many things I love about traditional schools AND alternative approaches to education; I'm not knocking schools, just using this as an example.
As I've alluded to in recent posts
, making great life-changing decisions doesn't always yield immediate relief and results and instant accomplishments; I've been pretty exhausted and overwhelmed on a bunch of different levels so I really don't expect everything to magically be PERFECT and I hope my members are patient and understand that too, though I totally understand if people feel like canceling
and perhaps coming back later when I have more to offer.
I'm really looking forward to getting back to making our spycams more entertaining, focusing on Delia's and my relationship to each other, and feeling better about my body. Today's the seventh day in a row I've exercised and I know by the time the new year rolls around I'm going to feel a million percent better (if the holidays don't kill me ;).
Labels: announcements, body image, boundaries, chat, fears, goals, health, money, PORNOGRAPHY, priorities, spycams, webcam shows, webwhore insights, work
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Porn & Teamwork
After our trip to my psychiatrist
, we drove a little more to spend the night with our friend, Ron Carlo. We had an idea for a new porn site to pitch to him and wound up staying awake until 4:30 in the morning excitedly talking about it and brainstorming. Here's the domain and a little of the concept:IMakePorno.com
I know, you're thinking I'm crazy, always coming up with ideas that I don't have time to develop, but that's the beauty of this one; we aren't doing it alone. Delia
and I can do a lot (we DO do a lot) as a couple, but adding just one more awesome person to the mix expands the possibilities exponentially.
While this is a business venture, I'm more excited about it for personal and creative reasons. It's an excuse to spend more time with Ron (and his family when we're not actually shooting) and it really is true that so much more can be accomplished by a team than by individuals. The difference between two people and three is GIGANTIC, especially when that third person has tools, skills, talents, and experience that we don't have. Ron knows what it takes to produce and market video and music on a variety of different budgets and timelines and his experience is super-varied. He is very familiar with our sites. We are familiar with each other's tastes and turn-ons. Over the past three years or so of working with him on projects like this one
and True Necromance
, we know each other's strengths and weaknesses, we get along really well, we are comfortable being honest with each other, our personalities balance each other out, we have a lot of important things in common with him and hanging out with him always uncorks a deluge of creativity. I LOVE THAT! He is resourceful, funny, optimistic, encouraging, smart, well-rounded, and he treats people with dignity and respect.
The rest of his family shares those qualities which is important since spending a lot of time with him also means visiting with his family (though not shooting porn with them) since we don't have an office or studio (and because we like them). My family knows about and is supportive of my work and I know that makes a huge difference in how I *feel* about being a webwhore; it makes me really happy to work with people who are similarly blessed with supportive and creative family members. I know it sounds hokey, but the "energy" is just better when people aren't keeping secrets from their loved ones and can talk about work with them. The second time we worked with Ron it was at his house where his wife is the one who picked out and sewed my costume and dressed me. Everywhere in the house was evidence of the things they value: art, activism, education, music, etc. They are people we care about which adds an extra incentive to this project and our desire for it to succeed.
Somehow this post is sounding like a letter of recommendation which isn't what I intended, it's just me counting our many blessings and sharing PART of why we are so excited about this project. We've been dying to branch out, shoot other people and do more creative things with our porn -- things that we can continue to do as we get older that showcase more of our personalities and assets than the physical ones. We are so lucky Ron is excited and willing to take a risk on this project with us; the concept is something completely unique to him and an exaggeration of dynamics that could really only exist between the three of us. We would not and could not put this together alone or with anyone besides Ron. We can't wait to see what emerges in two months, six months, a year from now and so on.
In the meantime, Delia and I are working hard to get ahead on updates for TastyTrixie.com and DeliaCD.com so that our current members don't suffer while we're shooting, building and launching imakeporno.com (again, it will be part of our network so membership to one of our sites includes access to all: our current members will automatically get access to the new site if they are still active when it opens). I'm hoping to launch before Thanksgiving, but Ron is aiming for SOONER!
Labels: announcements, family, friends, PORNOGRAPHY, relationships, values, webwhore insights, work
Thursday, July 03, 2008
"Born" on the 4th of July
We'd *planned* to take a real day off tomorrow, the 4th of July, but instead of that we have to take a buttcrack of dawn trip to Seattle to try to inseminate me
. I hate to be an asshole, but I feel like crying because the LAST FUCKING THING I WANT TO DO on the Fourth of July is be on the road. IN THE MORNING. The tension I feel now seems really counterproductive to trying to conceive so I guess I need to try to do some deep breathing or something. I would feel better if I could take a run right now and blow off some steam, but I hurt my foot the other day walking in heels outside for a shoot. Well, actually I was just trying on outfits for a shoot and had to run outside to see what our dog was hell bent on wolfing down: a grenade sized piece of dehydrated poop or something, and my ankles buckled three times in the grass as I ran in my mules to discover that. Since then it's hurt to put weight on my left foot.
This is NOT the blog entry I would like to post for you, it's just what it is. If I do not get pregnant this time, somebody just take me out and shoot me.
Are you going to tell me to go read _The Secret_ now? ;)
Anyway, I had to cancel my shows on Saturday the 5th because we *might* wind up stuck in Seattle and I can't put on a good show anyway after this procedure. So maybe we'll make Saturday our day off. Sort of like normal people have weekends and holidays, only ours will be just one day. Of course, normal people don't get to schedule massages on the fly the way I did today just after lunchtime, so it's not like I'm saying I want to be normal or anything. Just bitching, that's all.
Labels: announcements, anxiety, depression, dog, emotions, fears, trying to conceive
Thursday, May 15, 2008
We're getting ready to head out this afternoon/evening and not come home until Sunday; we'll be at a local transgender conference where we're slotted to be on a panel tomorrow talking about issues couples have. Other than that, we just plan to have fun. I'm looking forward to spending time away from home/work, socializing, and eating out. We haven't eaten out in a whole entire month so it will be a treat.Members/voyeurs:
some or all of our cams could go down while we're gone but if our laptop cooperates we will have a cam up in our hotel room (though I don't expect we'll be spending much time in there unless my period starts and I'm in cramp-riddled agony). At this moment I'm trying to finish uploading some video for you; if all goes well I'll get it posted before we leave. It's not hardcore, but it's entertaining (if you are entertained by the same oddball things I am).
Labels: announcements, food, mundane, my trans partner, Pacific Northwest
Sunday, March 30, 2008
What's Up with Me
Let's see, what have I been up to lately? Here are a few links to fill in the gaps:
*In case you haven't already read it, I'm not pregnant
. I feel much better since I posted that entry, but yeah. That's what I *did* feel like.
*I updated my radio station playlist
after realizing I need to step it up about ten notches if I want to justify the increasing expense of having one
. Note: it's probably not interesting reading unless you're "into" reading process-oriented planning stuff.
With my emotional state and my choice in tunes, listening to my own station gave me a bloated throat-lump and more crying. In a sorta good way.
*For the past few weeks it seems like the viewers/chatters in my webcam shows have been MUCH more pleasant than usual. I wind up the shows loaded with lots of warm fuzzies and really appreciate the change in tone. Coincidentally, most of these shows were during my vibrator-abstinence period and my PERIOD period so they were very chat-oriented shows with less actual showing-off of my body. Normally a less explicit show leads to the natives getting restless and very rude, but for some reason the crowds have been noticeably more tolerant, receptive and respectful than they have been in the past few years. I think that the big cam network might be filtering out some of the freeloaders because the crowds also seem smaller. Whatever it is, I like it; it's a lot more fun and relaxing.
*Our hosting company had some hiccups and is doing some upgrades so our sites have had (and might have more) downtime than I've seen with them for the past six years. They are doing some upgrades April 1st Monday Night/Tuesday morning
between 1:00am – 6:00am and hope to limit the down time to fifteen minutes, but it's possible there could be more.
I hate the impact that has on people's perceptions of our sites, but it happens to everybody at some time or another so I hope everyone will be patient with it. Members: if you want all the technical details and apologies from our hosting company, I've posted them HERE
We're going to have to do some heavy time (and semen) management in the upcoming weeks to try again to get pregnant, shoot content, and do some major work to try to get our income boosted (this week is going to be TIGHT) so I'm making a lot of lists, plans and goals. It might make me even more boring than usual, but also more productive (but maybe not more productive in the "fun" way).
Labels: announcements, goals, money, music, priorities, technical, webcam shows
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Here's what I did last week:
Remember how I bought Trixie.com a couple of years ago
and haven't really done anything with it? Well, I am finally making it useful
As I keep on creating new blogs it's felt like I needed a better way to collect and post more of my blogging in one place, so that's what I'm doing on Trixie.com
. It's not that I want to abandon my individual blogs because a lot of people are only interested in one of them and they SHOULD stay topical, but other people might be interested in having MORE all in one place/using one RSS feed.
As you can see there's also a long column of thumbs leading to free porn galleries I've handpicked that I hope people will find entertaining when my blogging is not.
Anyway, I still have a lot of behind-the-scenes fine-tuning and tedious tasks to do to make it work AND a few more important pages to write, but I still think it's worth visiting as-is. The design is nothing fancy, just a free wordpress template, but I actually really love its format and like the idea of letting the content speak for itself.
I want people who go there to a) remember my name, b) sense that I am a real person and know a little bit about who that person is (and recognize that they could know a whole lot more by sticking around or returning), and c) want to come back.
Labels: announcements, blogging, links
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Drawing for Best Sex Writing 2008
It's time for me to brag about being in another book, so get a load of me in my sexy attire of choice before the boasting begins:
Here I am with the book, Best Sex Writing 2008
The book isn't full of erotic fiction, it's an anthology of extremely provocative non-fiction pieces covering sex from challenging and unusual (but important and relevant) perspectives. Rachel Kramer Bussel
edited the collection (and is looking for submissions for 2009
Check out Audacia Ray's video review
of the book to get a better idea of my piece and the book. When she says "period porn" she is not talking about porn featuring people dressed up in anachronistic costumes; she's talking about the the porn you find on BloodyTrixie
For me, the best part of being included in this anthology is getting exposure to a topic that at first glance seems very "special interest" (the freedom to make and sell porn featuring menstruation) but really challenges people's assumption that we live in a country where free speech is protected, women own their own bodies, and capitalism rules. We don't. It's exciting to know that more people are going to be exposed to the marginalized truth that fringe-dwelling pornographers like myself live every day.
The stand-out parts of the book in total are its depth of exploration and diversity of topics; a lot of mainstream media coverage of sex is so shallow, boring and repetitive. So much that we read and hear about sex is either a) entertainingly dismissive or b) hyper-judgmental fear-mongering. It's usually some dumbed-down story to get ratings or clicks presented by people who really don't know what they're talking about. Sex is held at arm's length and treated as something that doesn't effect "real" life (except in a predatory way) or Matters of Serious Consequence.
I love the idea of people being shown by this book that THEY'VE BEEN MISSING OUT on fascinating, puzzling, and complex stories of personal and political import. This book is loaded with surprises and challenges while maintaining its readability. Each piece's tone and subject is so different from the others that it makes me feel giddy hoping people will realize they've been gypped by not being told more stories like these before. The contents of Best Sex Writing 2008 show the field of sex journalism's enormous scope in a way that makes it impossible to dismiss as fluff.I'M HOLDING A DRAWING AT THE END OF MARCH TO WIN AUTOGRAPHED COPIES OF BEST SEX WRITING 2008:
Who can enter:
Anyone with an active membership to TastyTrixie.com
during between today (February 28th) and March 31st is eligible.How to enter:Email me
with your username and mailing address stating you want to be in the drawing. I don't want to automatically enter everyone with a membership since some people may not even want the prize or may not have a safe address to receive parcels from webwhores.How many:
If more than one hundred (100) members email me to be in the drawing, I will draw for a second book. If more than 200 members email, I'll draw three (and so on). That way people will at least have a 1/100 chance (or better) of winning no matter how many new people join our sites.Watch the drawing:
Tuesday, April 1st at 4 PM Pacific Time on our spycams
and in our members-only chatroom.
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, boobs, books, media, news, PHOTOS, reviews, SEX, sociopolitical commentary
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Sorry I haven't posted anything the past few days; all you've missed is a giant broiling vat of premenstrual syndrome symptoms. It's been almost seven weeks since my last period started. I'm guessing I probably didn't ovulate this cycle for whatever reason. And all of the pregnancy tests are negative. I mentioned I have really horrid PMS, too, right?
If you want to see a little of what my days have been like check out my Daily Trixie blog
(imports all of my twitter posts
from the previous day). I personally thinks it's quite readable, but that might just be my narcissism speaking.
I've got my second show of the day coming up in half an hour. My face is tear-stained because of afore-mentioned hormonal problems. Nothing to worry about, it's just what's going on for me.
Going to pick a big fucking dildo to use because those skinny ones do NOT cut it when I'm in a mood like this one. And if anyone in the chatroom prods me for DEEP penetration I will scream bloody murder. Look up "G-spot" and have your eyes opened, ye Philistines.
Labels: announcements, bodily functions, body parts, chat, hormones, masturbation, mundane, rants, webcam shows
Friday, February 08, 2008
Church Dress & Pantyhose
From my most recent photo update:
Because the appearance of modesty STRIPPED appeals to many, here I am wearing a dress and flats I used to wear to church:
Plus the conservative classic, pantyhose (snagged, of course) over white panties:
And, finally, nude, pure and pale as the driven snow:There are 138 pictures in this series available to my members.
I am now getting ready for a musical chat session (also with members); I'll be uploading new songs to my neglected "radio" station
, ripping songs from cd's, and taking suggestions from members regarding music to explore and add.
See you there
Labels: announcements, chat, music, nudity, pantyhose, PHOTOS, PORNOGRAPHY
Monday, January 28, 2008
Just a quick post with pictures of our dog, Nic0, in the snow this morning, and a heads-up that we have a chat session scheduled with members tonight
at 7 pm (Pacific; 10 pm Eastern) in our members-only chatroom.
Playing with her Dora ball:Delia
did have a show scheduled tonight (and last night) but both had to be canceled due to my cycle's unpredictability/us still trying to get pregnant, so she wanted to do a members-only chat session instead (which I am looking forward to).
The top things on my agenda for today are getting some exercise, then getting pretty and shooting some photos for members. I would also dearly love to do some more blogging, but I don't know if there will be time for that. Getting ready and doing our shoots could take up the majority of the day.
Labels: announcements, chat, dog, Pacific Northwest, pets, PHOTOS, snow, webcam shows
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Heads up if you want to keep an eye on our spycams tonight: we've got fucking on the agenda
! I've been going crazy, having vivid sex dreams and masturbating, etc. Yesterday during one of my webcam shows I thought I was going to orgasm just from SEEING my clit.
I'm working on promo galleries for Delia's site
right now, it's been snowing a little bit, and my sister is cooking boca burgers with lots of extra mushrooms, etc. We've had to veil and take down some of our cams while they're visiting because of my nephew being here. It's worth it (for us), though.
Labels: announcements, family, food, SEX, spycams, TURN ONS, voyeurism, webcam shows
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Fertility Update, Etc.
Wondering how my appointment went at the fertility clinic? HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED
I have another dentist appointment soon so not a lot of time to blog, but I'm happy that I finished another step in my site redesign process. HERE'S MY NEW PROMOTIONAL "TOUR"
. There's a new sample video, which is funny and hot (I think), but my favorite parts are my BookWormHole fantasy
, my answer to the question of why I don't offer cheap trial memberships to my site
, and some more commentary on how I feel about porn bargains
Next on my redesign agenda is the REAL free area and this blog; I'm really disturbed by how much stuff is outdated, missing and/or broken on the free side of my site and how I've let it go this long. I'm also overwhelmed and really just tired of working on web design projects at this point. I feel really URGENT about finishing, weary about how long it takes me, and excited about the possibilities (yet depressed by my lack of skill and time in executing them). I feel like I can't do anything else until I am done with our overdue overhauls; I'm kind of going crazy.
I also just ordered some new video editing software; Delia used to edit our videos using premiere but the version we have is really old and I really didn't like using it myself so we switched to using good old, free, windows moviemaker. It's not great, but it's been efficient. Unfortunately it just doesn't do the trick for more ambitious projects, like my dollface video which we shot with two different cameras; just trying to insert an extra minute from another tape is pretty much impossible, requiring TEDIOUS amounts of cutting and pasting and trying to sync-up audio. It's a fucking nightmare. We're also way overdue on offering dvd's and videos formatted for ipods and the like. I ordered Pinnacle based on a rec from Torn
who said it does everything well without being overwhelming to learn. I can't afford the price or the learning curve of Vegas, etc.
Okay, I'm late now on getting ready for the dentist. I need to shower and eat now before my mouth is rendered completely useless for hours.
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, goals, mundane, PORNOGRAPHY, pregnancy, technical
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Most of our Cams are Down
Our cable internet connection went down (and most of our spycams with it) about fifteen minutes ago so I've been on hold ever since trying to find out what the deal is. Apparently some change they made that was supposed to be transparent to customers wasn't so transparent. They have to send a signal to our modem to get it working again, but because of how many people are affected there are loads of signals trying to get out so it COULD TAKE FOUR OR FIVE HOURS before ours goes through.
And they don't have any way of prioritizing business accounts like ours over regular ones, SO the only cams we'll be able to broadcast until it gets back up are our Rude cams which we run from our DSL machine.
Eventually I will get a wireless router for the DSL modem and wireless for our other machines so we can switch to the DSL connection when this happens, but for now we're a little stuck, which sucks since a bunch of our cams were down last night, too since a bunch of our machines auto-updated overnight. Blargh.
Labels: announcements, spycams, technical
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Due to disturbing problems with our neighbors we're giving serious consideration to moving, if not now then when the weather warms up. The trouble is we LOVE where we live. We just don't love that our neighbors live here, too.
That's our backyard. It looks like there are no neighbors, right? And there aren't, at least not on that side. That is the south side, the sunny side, the side that warms our souls. But turn the other direction to look north and you've got the dark side, the shady side . . . the side adorned with decaying mattresses and dramatized by domestic violence.
Growing up on the once-rural eastside of Seattle I was steeped in overcast dampness and have always loved mossy shadows, rain, and all of the other things people think are dark and depressing. Though I still live in Washington at a point still considered near Seattle, we live in a micro-climate that suffers from very little cloud cover. Some people call it The Blue Hole.
After five years of living here I'm finally getting addicted to the sun. This is the third house we've lived in together here, but it's the first with really phenomenal southern exposure coupled with huge south-facing windows. Though it's colder here than where I grew up, it's hardly ever gloomy and is often sunny.
This might be the first year of my life when I've really felt gloomy about the days getting depressingly shorter so I am *loathe* to leave this house with its vacation-room, a room with a wall of window heated by southern sunshine. November, December, January, February -- it actually gets HOT during daylight hours in this room during these months without even turning on the baseboard. It's like magic, totally defying everything I grew up knowing about Western Washington. I can go there for an hour a day to sunbathe in brilliant light and lazily read summertime fiction; it has a holodeck quality that I just can't give up, even if it means staying next door to a volatile woman and her abusive convict boyfriend.
Maybe when the days start getting longer again I'll be able to say goodbye to the stunningly perfect location and southern light we have here, but I've been so spoiled by it that the concept of "southern exposure" as a desirable real estate characteristic is no longer just something to wishlist, it's become a necessity. I don't know if I can ever live without it again so long as we stay in the Pacific Northwest.
I'd love to rant in more specific detail about our neighbors, but it's been so exhausting dealing with them that I've not wanted to rehash it in blog form. Yet. Someday? Hope so.
Those of you who hate the automated loudtwitter posts? I am going to take them off and stop having them post here. Feel free to comment more if you have thoughts about the whole twitter phenom or preferences about how/where I use it.
Labels: announcements, mundane, neighbors, Pacific Northwest, PHOTOS, Seattle
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
We'll be gone the next couple of days/nights shooting in a local place, which means we'll drive home a few times a day to let the dog out. We won't be responding to email, though, and our cams could drop off (but there won't really be anything to see anyway since we won't be home).
Keep your fingers crossed that we'll both be photogenic and so will the rooms! I'm going to finish packing now and then we'll be gone.
Labels: announcements, mundane, webwhore insights, work
Monday, September 24, 2007
A Dark Blue Blur
A DARK BLUE BLUR
Last week we revived our backyard spycam for members. We don't have it on the highest-quality spycam site so it's not as pretty as before, but you can still see the time of day and weather we're experiencing in our world and even the moon (a circle of white in a field of darkness accompanied by a reflection of the light from the webcam in the window; note: photo above is NOT from our spycam).
Last night we spent some time in bed together holding hands with the lights off and the curtains open, just staring up at the clouds and fog passing between us and the moon and listening to a soundtrack of spacey new age music (I'll give a link to my iMix when I get it), breathing deeply and eventually falling asleep. We have a pretty fucking awesome view from our bed, I must say.
I've been off the pill for about four months now; am I imagining that my body hair is thicker and more expansive than before? Seriously, my pits, pubes and facial hair seem a whole lot thicker and spread farther afield than while I was on birth control. Does anybody know if that is a normal thing to have happen when you stop taking the pill?
Hormones and gender are on my mind a lot these days because of Delia
being in the process of transition and about to go on female hormones herself. It's made me think more about my own gender identity and question things I might otherwise take for granted, like the simple process of my own hair growth. I'm not a very hairy person, but I am quite a bit hairier than my mom and sister. My facial hair isn't dark or noticeable, but I have a lot of blonde fuzz on my face, to the point where it shocks people when the light hits it just right and they see how much of it there is. It makes me wonder how much of my differences from my mom and sister is a different mix of genetic traits and how much of it is a different blend of hormones.
Speaking of hormones, I'm in the midst of my third whirl with PMS since going off the pill (so no, we're not yet pregnant). I *really* miss my steady diet of hormones and am having a relatively difficult time without them. I don't just suffer for a week -- no, my mood swings, depression, and murderous impulses dog me for (what feels like) weeks in an exhaustingly unpredictable manner. I can reassure you that it's not every moment of every day (hence the unpredictability) and life is sweet and peachy in so many ways, but overall I'm having a pretty hard time. It could be worse, I know, but I'd like it to be better. An example of my out-of-whack emotions: my eyes filled with tears last night when the clouds thickened enough to completely blot out our view of the moonlight. I would have started sobbing uncontrollably if not for worrying that Delia and our voyeurs would think I was crazy.
Tomorrow (Tuesday) morning I'm going to be in the chatroom if you feel like keeping each other company. Here's our schedule
if you want more details.
Labels: announcements, body hair, chat, family, full moon, health, mundane, music, spycams
Monday, September 17, 2007
The Boobs of Summer
THE BOOBS OF SUMMER
The weather is now gloriously cooler and damper than when we shot these pics, which are my last bonafide summer photos for 2007:
So, what have I been up to?
instead of blogging (though I've actually been laboring for a week over a blog entry involving scary pussy pics; I'll post it one of these days, but both the writing and the topic are near-tragic)
*Setting up our cool new schedule for fans of our shows and spycams; it's a google calendar
and a much better way to communicate exactly where and when we'll be "performing" since we appear on more than ten different sites regularly (three spycam sites, three cam show networks, and an assortment of venues for private shows and phone sex).
*Fucking (we are still trying to get pregnant, and it's consuming a sort of big area of my attention especially since it's connected to Delia's transition; she/we had her last therapy appointment to get the go-ahead for a report to an endocrinologist recommending her for hormones; if we don't get pregnant now, or even if we do, we also want to have some of her sperm frozen which is a whole project in itself requiring money, research, and determining what her sperm count is in the first place). I'll write more about that in other blogs and post links when I do.
*Doing fun camshows and chat sessions while also suffering a moderately nasty weekend headache which I've decided to blame on Celestial Seasonings Roastaroma tea, which I LOVE but inexplicably (and perhaps only coincidentally) winds up with me having a migraine the day after I drink a cup.
*Housecleaning (a soul-sucking yet mildly gratifying labor after you invest enough hours into it and stay focused on one thing at a time); we have fresh flannels on our bed, a clean mossy-green wet-autumn-colored comforter, and my nightstand crumbs and piles have been dispersed. The television is dusted and windexed, ready to shine the light of fall programming on our stupefied faces; I've not been this "into" television since I was ten years old and plotted my life around the tv guide when I stayed over at my grandparents' house. I just happened to pick up one of my favorite crap magazines with ads and descriptions of all the new shows popping up on the networks so I decided to try something new (because I seriously have never ever done this in my entire life): I want to watch all of the pilots, even the dumb ones that I really don't want to see. Okay, I've already failed because I'm *not* going to watch that new Frasiery newscaster show, but I am totally looking forward to Kid Nation and Dirty Sexy Money. Does anyone have any guesses as to whether the Geico caveman show is going to suck or be great? I'm one of the apparent millions who loves those commercials and am hoping they aren't just ruining a good thing making a whole series out of it. I'm very curious about how the copyrights and stuff work for that (but not curious enough to google it and actually find out who paid who what to make it happen).
*Stressing out a little about money since our extension to file our taxes expires next month. On a positive note, I feel myself gearing up for a cycle of productivity and happy hard work. I feel like I'm just coming out of a period of slack time. It's been great to feel less driven and consumed by work; I needed to slow down a little and have more lazy time. I feel ready to step up and put my nose back down to the grindstone, though. It's dysfunctional, but I do feel more excited and motivated when I'm on the brink of financial ruin (like maybe not being able to pay our 2006 taxes while I'm still making payments on 2005). I know, I know, some of you nervous nellies are aghast that we're considering creating our own small human under such dire circumstances, but seriously; the worst case scenarios are really not all that bad. And I'm not genuinely concerned "the worst" or even anything all that bad will happen. Call me crazy, but just do it in your own bubble and not in the comments because I don't want to hear it. I already know I'm insane. We don't need to discuss it.
Labels: announcements, blogging, money, parenthood, PHOTOS, pop culture, SEX, television, webcam shows
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
One of my favorite things about being a little chubby: backfat
, shot today:
I went to the doctor to get weighed and have my body composition analyzed; there's not a huge change from the last time I checked
back in November. I weigh 117 pounds and about 28.6% (33.5 lbs) of that is fat. Sexy!
Since I got my period again / am not pregnant, I want to hurry and go back to the spa
for all of the hot tubs and steamy/salty/muddy rooms that I won't be able to enjoy when I'm pregnant. I made an appointment to go there tomorrow with my sister and get a massage. This is good news for me, but perhaps bad news for viewers; I've moved my chats and shows around so if you're a member who likes to attend those things, check the show page
for the latest (I have a couple of episodes of News Flash scheduled to make up for some of the other losses, and moved my Friday show to Saturday).
After this weekend we'll be doubling our procreational efforts, which might mean we cancel a lot of shows and focus all of our sexual energy on each other; good for spycams, but less good for "shows".
And now? I'm going to try to finish editing the photos we shot today, and shoot a gallery and video of Delia
Labels: announcements, beauty standards, health, PHOTOS, webcam shows
Friday, August 03, 2007
I've got a chat & masturbation show today at 1 pm (Pacific) on SCC which members can access here
Later I have a free chat-only session scheduled to talk about all things Harry Potter, particularly the most recent/last book and film, so if you want to join in on that, members can access it at 5 pm (Pacific) here
while everyone else can enter it freely here
. It's only scheduled for forty-five minutes, but will probably continue for an hour. Once the first forty-five minutes are over, however, no one will be able to enter the chatroom (but the people already in there can stay).
My hope is to also be available on the phone for people to call me at this "just friends" listing
off and on today and tonight.
If I decide to do actual phone sex I may switch over to calls from these listings
:When a button above say "call now" it means I'm available IMMEDIATELY to take your calls. Hint: If you feel like scandalizing me by calling the "just friends" listing and saying horribly naughty things, I won't actually hang up, I just won't reciprocate (verbally, at least) and may ACT shocked, feign disapproval, or giggle.
In between those things I've got some blog entries to write, some books to read, and a titty-fucking video to edit and upload for our members.
Oooh, and Delia has a chat & masturbation show at 4 pm (Pacific) on the guy side of camz which members can access here
, and then is going to be doing private shows here
.To spy on us, have access to our shows, and get inside all of our members-only areas (SpyOnUs, DeliaCD, TastyTrixie and TrixiesHouseboy), join HERE (for a limited time at $19.99 a month while I am too lazy to update the join pages & pricing to reflect our new all-access pass).
Labels: announcements, chat, phone sex, webcam shows
Monday, July 09, 2007
Sorry for the lack of posts lately; things have been hectic, but I *have* been keeping everyone (you included) posted by twittering a lot
. If you want to know my latest movements (and you're not watching our potty cam, haha), then that's the place to see what the fuck is occupying me that doesn't happen to be blogging.
So yeah -- if you want to know what will be consuming most of our day today, check my twitter profile
(or look for the latest update from it in the sidebar and keep refreshing).
Labels: announcements, links, mundane, voyeurism
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Cool Changes, Slight Problem
COOL CHANGES, SLIGHT PROBLEM
Today we made an exciting change to our sites; when you join any one of our sites, you get access to ALL of them. It's retroactive, too, so if you currently have a membership to one of our sites, you can now get inside all of them.
Except for one small problem: our payment processor who handles all of the password files must not have done it exactly right, so for some reason no one can get into my site, TastyTrixie.com. I called them as soon as I found out, and they're fixing it now, so in the meantime you can access our spycams here
or ooops wait . . .
You should be able to get in now: the on-duty CCBill tech boy *just* called me back to report that he fixed AND tested it so all should be working. If not, please comment here or email me, k?FYI: you will be prompted for your username and password at each site as you move between them.
I'll write more about this change later, but I'm super excited about it (and members should be too) because everyone will now get access not only to all of our sites, but to TWO (and soon THREE) spycam sites instead of just one.
Fair warning: we'll be raising the cost of membership on all of our sites (except spyonus.com, which will be LOWERED). But right now?? You can still join for the same cost of just one site, at a price ($19.99 a month) set way back in 2002 that hasn't been raised since (and currently rebilling members don't worry: you will continue to be billed at the old rate; you will NOT be charged the new rate unless you cancel and rejoin at the higher rate). I'll be mailing all current and former members to make sure that you all are still able to join at the 2002 rates for quite a while as a token of our appreciation.
Delia and I gave it a lot of thought and discussion, and after five years and the addition of lots of content plus an all-access pass, it's definitely time to bump up the price especially since we'll be burning up the bandwidth bill with members being able to download videos and photos from four sites at once.
Anyway -- hooray!!
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, technical
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Cable Still Down
CABLE STILL DOWN
A post made by Trixie on her phone.MP3 File
Our connection got back to normal right after I made this post.
Labels: announcements, audio, spycams
Thursday, June 21, 2007
We didn't plan to get a room last night, but we were just so horny we HAD to!
We got the last ferry from Seattle to Bainbridge late last night after waiting an hour at the dock. Then we drove all the way to the Hood Canal bridge only to find that it was closed due to a fatal car accident
. We were way too sleepy to sit there in the middle of the night for three or more hours waiting for them to investigate and clean up the scene so we drove to Silverdale and got a room. It was way too late to be horny. I actually just wanted to go to Sheri's and have some hash browns and eggs, but Delia
was way too sleepy and not at all tempted by eggy late night breakfast concoctions.
Anyway, it looks like our cams went down while we were away, but don't worry -- you didn't miss anything since we weren't home. We did have an awesome time at Part I of my nephew's first birthday party (Part II is on Sunday so we'll be canceling or rescheduling our shows for that day) AND a delightful visit and late dinner with Kris
Tonight I have a goodnight chat session scheduled for 9 pm pacific. Right now? I want to catch up on some of that sleep I missed.
Labels: announcements, family, friends, Pacific Northwest
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
"Wasted" Nap Time
WASTED NAP TIME
I "wasted" my nap time this morning by masturbating instead. Had a nice wake-up chat with voyeurs first, then grabbed the eroscillator.
I caught up on my nap time this afternoon AFTER devouring another box of extra-dark chocolate little schoolboys, then I passed out in a chocolate coma only to be awakened by Delia coming in and giggling at the debauched scene of me in bed with little schoolboy remnants scattered all over the bed and me totally sacked out.
I've been pretty blissed out lately and it makes me lazy; I don't feel like striving, I just want to enjoy everything like an old person giving thanks at the end of her life. I just want to lay in bed and watch the birds (especially crows; I like crows) fly back and forth outside. This is the life
. I just want to cuddle, fuck, masturbate, read, drink beautiful soy-creamed tea made from water boiled in our New Spanky Electric Kettle, and tell my girlfriend
how much I love her.
We're going to be gone tomorrow for my nephew's birthday party Part I: the family-only event. If we're lucky and get in early enough we might also hang out briefly with Kris
who is going to be in town but equally preoccupied with family affairs. She suggested we try to get in a few touristy snapshots so I might even take a shower beforehand!!
Labels: announcements, family, friends, SEX, thanksgiving
Monday, June 11, 2007
Show Pushed Back an Hour
SHOW PUSHED BACK AN HOUR
I'm changing my show tonight
from 10pm to 11 pm (pacific) to allow us to go see Pirates
. Expect me to be duly aroused by filthy Depp.
Labels: announcements, webcam shows
So . . . we have some sorta big news; we're going to try to get pregnant.
More details later, but here's the undeveloped porn side of that decision: FertileTrixie.com
Labels: announcements, pregnancy
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Yay -- a few hours of relative silence and solitude; Delia
and my sister are going to see a drive-in movie, my mom and nephew just went to bed, and the dogs are quiet so I'm going to spend some time by myself in bed with books, clean pajamas and perhaps some new age music. Because I'm a dork like that. I'm sad to miss seeing Spiderman 3
in a drive-in, but I know I won't be able to concentrate; having company for days on end means my ability to pay attention to things is totally shot to hell and I just can't hack the thought of being in a field surrounded by people and their noises and the smells from their cars and their movements bouncing around in my peripheral vision.
Delia made a lovely dinner of deviled eggs and gazpacho tonight for all of us. Earlier today while my mom and sister were out hiking with her dog and Mr. SquishyPants, Delia and I had a "meeting" to talk about our goals and plans for the sites, shooting, budgeting, etc. We should do that more often.
Tomorrow (Sunday) I have a group webcam show
at noon (pacific) and will be putting my nose back down to the grindstone since we'll be alone in the house again. Delia also has a group show tomorrow and will be available for private shows
, too. We'll also be on the road a little next week since we are going out of town for Delia's laser hair removal and her first appointment with her psychologist who will be helping during her transition from male to female. I am excited to meet the psychologist, too.
Labels: announcements, movies, mundane, webcam shows
Friday, May 25, 2007
I'm having a delightful conversation with my wanker right now, but he told me I should have posted when our spycams came back up on Wednesday (less than an hour after I posted). I sometimes forget that not EVERYONE is a member, or a member who compulsively hits refresh on the spycams.
Anyway, Delia came out to my sister and brother-in-law and all is well. I'm going to keep this short because as I type, my wanker is paying so I really *should* speak to him rather than slowly narrate each word as I bang it out on the keyboard. On the other hand, he knows he is privileged to get this kind of public recognition from me, so he really should be paying.
There we go: guilt exonerated.
Labels: announcements, family, phone sex, wankers
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Looks like the spycam site is down for the count (I imagine they are doing server work and it will be back up soon; if not I will call them). Very annoying.
I'm devoting a lot of time today to housecleaning; it's one of those things I can't find inspiration to do consistently so eventually it builds up to the point where I can't stand being surrounded by rubble and messy chaos anymore. Today is that day.
Delia and I must have caught a bug; I've got a sore throat and hardly ever get sick so other than housecleaning and posting my update I'm not sure I'll accomplish much today (though cleaning the house is a MAJOR undertaking).
Oh, we *are* going to enjoy a dork dance session on our spycams
this evening if you want to watch/listen. Of course, that will rely upon the spycam site COOPERATING. Grrrrr . . .
Tomorrow we're going to Seattle to visit my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew, Mr. Squishy-Pants. I'm looking forward to it and must INSIST that my body heal itself and not carry any sickness across the sound.
Labels: announcements, mundane, spycams, technical
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
When Your Boyfriend Becomes Your Girlfriend
WHEN YOUR BOYFRIEND BECOMES YOUR GIRLFRIEND
Some of you may be a little thrown off by the casual way I mentioned that Delia is going to phase out Tucker in favor of living en femme on a full time basis
. This isn't a porn business thing, this is honestly a big life decision; my boyfriend wants to start living life as a transwoman
(probably to involve hormones at some point but probably not "bottom" surgery).
I promise we'll write more about all of this later, but in the meantime I just want to say that the top priority right now is sorting through it ourselves; it's hard to blog about something when you don't really have a definite plan of action and you need to focus on quality face time with each other and figuring out how Delia will come out to family and friends.
In general it's really not as big of a bombshell as it might sound. I can't say I am 100% prepared, but I've known for a long time it was within the realm of possibility. I also can't say I don't have ANY issues or fears about this transition from boyfriend/sometimes-girlfriend to full-time girlfriend, but relative to other people's experiences and expectations this is not a really big deal except in an exciting way. For me (in terms of life changes) I would rank it at the same level as selling a house you really love and have lived in for years in order to buy a sweeter house you also love and that will work better for your family. A little stressful, a little sad, but overall a blessing and positive change. You can make your home anywhere when you're with someone you love, and I love my
I think part of why this change is feeling natural to me more than overwhelmingly scary is that my parents (especially my mom) raised me to shrug off conventions and expectations. My family was fairly unconventional with my dad and stepdad getting along well, and my dad living with my mom's parents (his ex-mother and father-in-law) long after my mom and dad divorced. Things that weren't normal for other families were totally normal for us. My mom is the type of person who genuinely thinks we should do whatever makes us happy and fuck everyone else if they have a problem with it. Again, I can't say that my family won't have ANY worries about this change, but I am lucky to have been brought up to feel comfortable defying cultural norms and to have a family I can count on to support and accept us without undue drama or shock; I mean, HELLO -- they've dealt really well with me being a pornographer/virtual sex worker so this might be small beans in comparison. I'm pretty sure both my mom and sister are prepared for the news (which we haven't exactly given them yet since the news is really REALLY new and I think we want to talk about it in person).
As far as our websites go, we'll probably take this opportunity to make them a network in the near future (join one, you get access to them all) since we won't be able to keep TrixiesHouseboy.com
going forever as-is but still want to keep it alive and accessible (and probably morph it into a multi-guy site as we get more resources). Also, Delia will no longer be "just" a crossdresser as the domain DeliaCD.com
implies, so she'll also be transitioning to a new domain with a slightly different approach, but of course we'll want her members to be able to get access to all of the CD site stuff, too. I've actually been wanting for a long time to make all of our stuff available to all members regardless of which site interests them most, since I really like showing off ALL of it as one body of work even though it's more sensible to market each persona individually. I'm not totally sure when this will happen but it might be soon (and later lead to revamping the format of our members-only areas to reflect the all-inclusive approach).
Anyway, I want to be careful to remind people that when I talk about Delia's transition I can only talk about it from MY perspective; there's a limit to how much I can know and understand what she's feeling, hoping and experiencing. Even though we are going through this as a couple, she's also going through it as an individual (same for me) and I think those could all be pretty distinctive journeys and not one of us really knows for sure where we'll end up. Happy and together are what I'm aiming for.
Labels: announcements, family, gender issues, my trans partner, relationships, transition
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Dairy for the Lactose Intolerant
DAIRY FOR THE LACTOSE INTOLERANT
Full Gallery & video appearing now in my Members-Only.
Join TastyTrixie.com or SpyOnUs.com to see more of my big natural boobs.
I admit it: sometimes I'm mesmerized by images of my own breasts. I love the shapes, colors, and textures in this little screen grab from a video I posted today. It's a flattering image; they look pretty near perfect to me. Okay, I'm lying. They look totally fucking perfect to me as far as big ones go.
We just got home from a long day of shopping in preparation for a conference we're going to next week. It's for transgendered people and their significant others. I'm excited about it; I like structured events with classes and stuff, and I can't wait to find out how to refine my "identi-T". It's not a swingers' convention or a porn conference or any of that, though, so don't expect us to come home with any wild or crazy stories; in fact, we're both a little apprehensive about how we'll be perceived as a couple with porn sites. There's a distinct probability that a lot of people there will have issues with that or be suspicious of us because of it so we'll not be wearing t-shirts with our domain names printed on them, but our sites ARE part of our "identi-T's" so we're also not going to avoid talking about what we do.
Labels: announcements, body parts, gender issues, natural boobs, PHOTOS, shopping
Sunday, May 06, 2007
SHOW TODAYI'm doing a show
today at noon (pacific), then Delia
has her show at 4 pm as usual and will be webwhoring after that. If we're lucky, Camz won't still be having technical problems the way they were on Friday and our shows will go off without any hitches.
We decided to move our Tuesday shows to Sunday and Monday to open up the week for travel and shoots; during nice weather it SUCKS to go anywhere on the weekend around here, especially when you're at the mercy of overstuffed ferry boats, as we are. Being able to plan trips for Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday (rather than extending things onto horrible-for-travel Friday) is WAY better.
I do have more interesting and exciting things to blog about, but it's the mundane stuff that has me in its clutches. My big accomplishment yesterday was editing video and writing a letter of dispute on a credit issue. I also started working on a new design for Trixie.com
, but I don't know if it's "sexy" enough. I don't even know for sure what I'm trying to accomplish there and am a little paralyzed by uncertainty and lack of resources so I'm going to try to convince myself to just have fun with it.
So far I am not very receptive to that reality-show advice, though.
Last night we wasted all kinds of time watching horrible Discovery channel shows about people with facial deformities.
The best thing we did yesterday? Bought spices for lentil soup.
Labels: announcements, mundane, technical, webcam shows
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Hot for Bubbles
HOT FOR BUBBLES
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My nascent bubblegum fetish is getting bigger and bigger
and BIGGER. I can't resist integrating it into my group webcam shows (as in the above image snagged by DavieUK during one of my Monday shows) and I'm beginning to crave it during (non-recorded) sex.
After my late show on Monday my g-spot was still craving action so I lured Tucker
into the bedroom and climbed on top of him to rub my long-socked legs all over him. I suddenly felt like if I had some gum to chew and blow everything would be PERFECT. And then I got an urge to not only wear long socks and blow bubbles while fucking, but also to slap Tucker silly. Alas, he said he would need to be tanked to endure a slap-session and because I'd already combined in my head the gum-chewing/blowing with the face-slapping I didn't even bother getting off Tucker to go into my office for gum. Instead we had a loud and heated session of "regular" sex including some doggy-style after my orgasm. I have never had an orgasm while being fucked from behind (except with the aid of a vibrator) so even though I enjoy it and experience pleasure from it, we usually don't do it that way unless we're in extended-play mode. Unfortunately no one sent me a screen capture from that session, but I imagine those watching were too busy with other things to be copying and pasting screen grabs.
As some of you've heard already, we're going to start an ongoing contest with monthly winners for voyeurs who submit screen caps. The only reason I keep procrastinating on starting and announcing it is I feel like I need to write some tutorials for those who don't already know how to do the print screen thing. I also have some software to recommend for people to be able to automate the process and even capture video with audio. I'm sure some fellow webwhores will think it's totally irresponsible of me to teach viewers how to archive our live performances and spycam moments, but I don't really have a problem with it as long as they don't try to resell them or post scads of them on message boards, etc. I actually feel like it's totally taking advantage of members to get them to record content and then send it to me so I can use it to make money. Seems like a fair trade to me when it boils down to it.
I'll be posting more bubblegum and long sock content to my members area
today so if you're not sick of my bubblegum obsession, you'll be pleased.
FYI: the bubble in the above pic was blown with four or five pieces of Bazooka.
Labels: announcements, bubblegum, fetishes, long socks, SEX, spycams, webcam shows, webwhore insights
HEAD CLEANERAfter waiting half an hour yesterday for our internet connection to return in time for our shows
, it was time to shit or get off the pot; we decided to cancel and put our time to better use than repeatedly dialing the cable company.
We left our downed-connection at home and drove over forty miles (over 80 round) to the nearest Best Buy so we could get a MiniDV camcorder head cleaner; our videos have been coming out with some bizarre chirps and bleeps and wacky messy visual disturbances and it took me a few months to realize it's probably because the heads are dirty. I'm not so smart about those things. Too bad I just spent hours downloading six videos the other day and will have to redo at least some of them to reap the benefits of the newly cleaned heads.
Anyway, I hope the cleaned-up video for members will make up a bit for the lost show. I also scheduled a make-up show for Friday evening
Speaking of head cleaner, my return to Ritalin has been treating me well. I do feel like I need to post a status report for voyeurs so they'll know when I'm medicated and when I'm not (because my behavior IS noticeably different) since I don't have enough of a stash right now to take it consistently and have no idea when I'll get an appointment with a doctor (I left a voicemail with my psychiatrist yesterday but then I pushed the wrong button and have no idea if I actually saved/sent the message) PLUS I have no intention of taking all three doses every single day. For one thing, a girl has got to eat; most of the time food is not very appealing when you're on stimulants. Just as an example, since yesterday was a special day (May Day, five year anniversary of my site, etc.) I wanted to fully enjoy good food and not have any of my natural tendencies repressed or subdued so I didn't take any pills.
The ability to take medication vacations is one of the things that I like about stimulants; they don't stay in your system very long (four hours for what I take), they don't take weeks or months to start working, you can take them as needed or not, and you're not going to have a total meltdown if you decide to go without them (though of course you will have all your ADD or ADHD symptoms come back, sometimes rebounding in an exaggerated way like a kid with a mild case of Tourettes who has managed to control most of her tics all day at school and then comes home and unloads a volley of pent-up energy; it's not the same thing, but is the only thing I can imagine that might feel similar except without the holding-it-in part since the meds take care of that without any conscious, painful effort).My apologies to those of you making it through this entire entry but aren't really interested in this stuff. I would try to keep some of this to myself but it seems like there's a significant number of readers and members who find ADD and stimulant talk useful/interesting, and it definitely helps me to blog about it.
Bubblegum lovers: since dry mouth is a side effect of stimulant use I am counteracting that by chewing and blowing more than normal on my spycams.
Labels: announcements, attention deficit disorder, bubblegum, drugs, food, health, mundane, ritalin, shopping
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
We lost our internet connection and had to cancel our shows:
Labels: announcements, technical, webcam shows
Sunday, April 29, 2007
An Unusual Silence
AN UNUSUAL SILENCE
If you've been watching my spycams
the past couple of days and noticed an unusual silence, it's because I decided to try Ritalin again. No loud, angry outbursts of swearing! Isn't that refreshing?
I'm still noisy in the fart arena, though. Yesterday I sat down at my desk and ripped the craziest-sounding fart with a squeaker on the end; I burst out laughing, it was so cute. THAT IS WHY WE HAVE AUDIO ON OUR SPYCAMS! Also, last night I posted a short fart video
in the behind-the-scenes section of SpyOnUs. Here's a picture of me farting from my favorite gallery we shot last week:
Full Gallery coming soon in my Members-Only area.
Join TastyTrixie.com or SpyOnUs.com for ALL of my long sock photos!
Anyway, I hope you don't miss seeing me ripping out my hair and hearing me throw conniption fits over stupid little things because while I'm dosed on speed I generally don't freak out like that.
Labels: announcements, attention deficit disorder, bodily functions, drugs, ritalin, spycams
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
The place we're shooting at ROCKS -- it's fucking gorgeous AND the wireless works so we have one cam up. Of course, the house is huge so I can't say you'll see much unless we keep moving the computer around (it has a power issue too so sometimes when we unplug it? It won't turn back on).
Anyway, this should be a fun and productive couple of nights, for sure. It's too bad, though, that there are zero curtains/shades on the windows; could make shooting at night with lights difficult with the neighbors who could, for all we know, be the owners.
This morning I realized that the past few months of my archives here aren't linked in the archive list; I don't know what the problem is or how to fix it, but I hope to work it out soon. Like, next year or something. Just kidding.
Labels: announcements, spycams
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Three Trivial Things
THREE TRIVIAL THINGS
Three things you probably didn't know about me:
*I have a heart murmur
*I have a tipped uterus
*I was in Awana
as a preteen and I liked it
. I loved the structure and felt like I was proving to our super-conservative neighbors that I couldn't possibly be a total heathen with my knack for memorizing bible verses. When I was in Awana the rewards were little tiny "jewels" that you put in the miniature plastic crowns that you pinned on your chest. The more jewels and crowns and shit meant the more bible verses you knew. Doesn't look like they still have those cool little crowns and jewels and stuff anymore; that's a crying shame. Wait -- I'm wrong! At least the Sparkies still have that stuff.
Tucker and I have had some great sex the past couple of days so I hope you were watching on our spycams because the next few days will be boring; we're going out of town again to do some (photo) shooting. Supposedly there's internet access at the house we're renting, but I'm not holding my breath; we'll bring a cam or two just in case, though, but the view will probably be boring since I'm not up to the challenge of wiring a whole house for cams for two nights when we need to spend that time focusing on content production, not spycams.
Labels: announcements, mundane, SEX, spycams, trivia
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Massage & News FLASH!
MASSAGE & NEWS FLASH!
So much for my massage this morning; seems that the guy penciled me in for a FACIAL rather than a massage, so I had to reschedule. Hmmm . . . I wonder what he was thinking? Oh well, they are making it up to me by tacking on a free half hour which makes the inconvenience of waking up early TOTALLY worth it. Plus, Tucker made a big batch of bean dip last night and I overindulged; the poor massage girl would have been in pure hell with me farting throughout the massage so everything worked out for the best.Upcoming Events for Members:
NEWS FLASH today 4-5 pm Pacific Time.
Click on the SpyOnYou link on my spycams page.
Join TastyTrixie.com or SpyOnUs.com for our voyeurcams & chatroom.
Labels: announcements, mundane, spycams
Thursday, April 12, 2007
All is well again for the time being and you (voyeurs) didn't miss anything except the usual (us stuffing our faces and watching DVRd Next Top Model. Something could happen after I have this gin and tonic, though . . .
My apologies, but I planned a lovely afternoon of fucking and enjoying ourselves, but our cams are not cooperating. Scratch that -- the site hosting our cams is not cooperating. CONSTANT DISCONNECTIONS. And now the computer with our bedroom cam and all three of our cams hosted on a different site simply refuses to connect to the internet. While the lovely brunch we just cooked gets stale and cold in the kitchen as I try to get this sorted out so people can spy on us.
Sorry if you are able to see and hear me on my office spycam throwing a hysterical tantrum. I'm so glad we picked up a pint of gin because I am ready for a drink (or five) for once.
Labels: announcements, rants, SEX, spycams
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I channeled my frustration into a little housecleaning and now I feel much, MUCH better. Housework and hysterics are a perfect combo in my book, and Tucker is very accommodating and sweet in the face of my nervous breakdowns. I was even capable of reconstructing my Thunderbird inbox post-housework, which means I can complete a task Tucker is relying upon me to complete so he can send out a newsletter.
Anyway, we are again going to focus on shooting the next couple of days so I don't have any chat sessions scheduled until Friday (breakfast in bed chat) and Saturday (News FLASH!).
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, mundane, relationships
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Gone for Easter
GONE FOR EASTER
I'm going to be gone tonight and tomorrow to hang out in my hometown with family for Easter. Tucker won't be able to go, unfortunately, because of his Delia
shows on Sunday.
I'll be in chat for an hour before I go if you want to shoot the breeze.
Friday, April 06, 2007
No Lion, All Lamb
NO LION, ALL LAMB
It's definitely spring here; abundantly clear-skied and the days are blessedly longer. The moon last night was CRAZY -- huge, orange and low on the horizon, dumping its reflection all over the water.
I did a good thing and planned to have Wednesday and Thursday OFF. I actually partially followed through on that plan so I only did about five hours of work between the two days and tried to spend the rest of the time relaxing. We took a drive, saw a movie
, watched buttloads of television and movies at home, went to the gym (seriously, I did), took the dog for a walk, ate our lunch outside on our deck with me in my underwear, and Tucker grilled salmon outside last night for dinner. Days off are good, and now I'm raring-to-go with work. I have two chat sessions scheduled today and one tomorrow
so if you're a member
, I hope to see you there.
Labels: announcements, Pacific Northwest
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
We're going to be gone for three days / a couple of nights in a rental shooting as big of a buttload of photos as we possibly can. Normally we don't do a great job of taking care of our fingernails and toenails as we should given our line of work, so I scheduled a manicure for Tucker and a pedicure for myself today. I think the asian guy doing my feet tickled them on purpose with his pumice stone and got a big jolt of pleasure out of making me squirm and giggle.
So. I did do the brunette thing again and even a shade darker than last time. I LOVE IT!
Anyway, there won't be any action on our spycams while we're gone since there's no internet access where we're going. I know, it sounds like we're living in some kind of a time warp, but we tend to rent places that are in rural locations for our shoots so modern amenities like internet access can't be taken for granted and honestly, I'm kind of glad. We like to get away from the spycams and just immerse ourselves in shooting and then having bedtime all to ourselves with no computers humming or peepers peeping.
Labels: announcements, fetishes, Pacific Northwest, privacy, spycams, work
Saturday, March 24, 2007
True Necromance on Sin Cities
TRUE NECROMANCE ON SIN CITIES
Ooooh!! The hysterical zombie-movie-in-one-day that Tucker and I were in (he as the vicar and me playing the esteemed role of Helen Cooper) can be previewed now on Bravo UK's Sin Cities website:SEE WEBISODE HERE!!!!
Episode 10: Porn Director
I knew it would be funny, but having never seen Sin Cities on television I didn't realize the potential for our fifteen minutes of potential tv infamy to mock us so deliciously. And aren't those chopsticks on my boobs HILARIOUS?
I've heard that the whole episode is due to air in April sometime so check your local listings if you're in the UK or one of the many other countries with access to Sin Cities.
Ashley Hames gives serious direction to me and Tucker.
I strip for the vicar.
I think I'm Ricky Gervais' long lost cousin!
Seriously, don't I resemble him or am I flattering myself?FYI: Ashley squirts my face with cum during the making of the "movie" and the always-appreciated Jackhammer Jesus dildo features prominently in the graveyard scene.
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, celebrity, pop culture, SPECIAL APPEARANCES, television
Friday, March 23, 2007
My "radio" station
has a new song selection on shuffle play; it's been about six months since I fooled around with it so it's long overdue.
I definitely have a different mix of music on there than I play, say, during my cam shows. While I love my show music, it seems that the people who favorite-list my radio station DO NOT like it when I inject songs like Mr. Crowley into my playlists. I can't imagine what they would do if I dared to play Bon Jovi. Guess I'll have to find out one of these days.
Labels: announcements, music
Sunday, March 18, 2007
We're madly cleaning in anticipation of the arrival of my sister, brother-in-law, and squishy nephew. They're coming early for my family-oriented birthday party/spring celebration and staying until Wednesday.
What does this mean for our members? Some of the cams and/or audio may be down while they're here the next three days/nights. I won't be paying much attention to computer/site stuff, and we canceled our Monday and Tuesday shows.
What does this mean for me? I've been looking forward to this birthday celebration for awhile since we didn't celebrate Christmas here in Washington state with my family because we were in Michigan with Tucker's. My 34th birthday and onset of spring feel like a good substitute. Normally I don't give a shit about my birthday (and I definitely don't care about what day Christmas is celebrated), but this time around I totally told everybody what we are going to do, how we're going to do it, and I have held-over Christmas presents to give them so I can feel like a springtime Santa Claudette. I'm excited!
Labels: announcements, family, spycams, thanksgiving
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
Full Gallery appearing now in my Members-Only area.
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I'm officially 34 years old today and will be celebrating with a members-only show
at 3 pm Pacific Time.
Labels: announcements, PHOTOS, webcam shows
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Fucking on Cam
FUCKING ON CAM
I got an early birthday present from someone with very good taste so we'll be listening to those two Explosions in the Sky
CDs and fucking (I've been looking forward to fucking to this music for a long time and the night is finally here)!
Anyway, I'm taking a bath first and then we'll begin luxuriating in bed and, you know, DOING "it" so check it out on the spycams
Labels: announcements, music, SEX, spycams
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Not what you were expecting?
NOT WHAT YOU WERE EXPECTING?
Okay, so I know some people got excited about this week's members-only update thinking it would be this photo set
. But instead you're getting 40 minutes of video like these pictures, only louder and more obnoxious:
Video appearing now in my Members-Only area.
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I know some of you think I don't give a rat's ass who I offend, but there's a middle ground for me especially when it comes to this kind of content. When people get pissed off at me about it, I usually think the arguments and complaints they present are laughably stupid, rude, and presumptuous but on the other hand it really DOES bother me thinking of some sweet older Christian person joining my site and totally not anticipating s/he'll be confronted by something so overtly profane. Yes, I do think it's totally possible for a Christian to join a porn site and not be a hypocrite by doing so and not even be a hypocrite for being disturbed by hearing me discuss the crucifixion in gory, sexually lurid language.
I'd love to reflect on this at length, but I'm SLEEPY and I think our guests are waiting to go get sushi so that's all I have to say about blasphemous porn right now.
Labels: announcements, fetishes, PHOTOS, porn consumers, PORNOGRAPHY, spiritual issues, values, webcam shows, webwhore insights
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Permission to Postpone
PERMISSION TO POSTPONE
Okay . . . we just got back from a productive shopping trip and I'm granting myself permission to postpone my update. We have COMPANY; you wouldn't want me to neglect Kris
, would you?
Some of you may be wondering if we've been spending our time together eating box lunches and giggling about how much we love cock, but there's been none of that, nor do we have plans to shoot anything like that. Plus, Kris doesn't do hardcore anymore (and yeah, I think licking carpet qualifies as hardcore). She does want to try to get in some fetish shoots, though so we might get around to something erotic (yet inexplicit) tomorrow. If not tomorrow, next time.
It's been fun just to talk and hang out. I mean, REALLY fun.
I bought 25 pairs of panties tonight for Delia
and I. We went to Ross ("Dress for Less" - if you're a poor bargain-hunter on the west coast you know where I'm talking about) so for $250 we were able to get a cartload of stuff that qualifies as costumes for our sites. We got Delia some shoot-worthy dresses (example: we got THIS DRESS
at Ross awhile back) and I got some tops that make my boobs look TOTALLY GINORMOUS.
Labels: announcements, friends, money, mundane, shopping
FYI: we are still enjoying the presencing of Kris Madison
in our humble abode, so we've been making the most of our time to socialize, which means I've been neglecting my other "duties". Tucker's update is late, my update might be late tonight, and you know . . . we're having fun. We have been turning off the audio quite a bit on our cams so that we can speak frankly about our lesbian love for each other without having people pressure us to do more than watch American Idol in bed together. It's really personal so I hope you understand our need for a little auditory PRIVACY.
Our plans for today are to go SHOPPING! And I hope we eat Indian food, too! Aren't you jealous of our wild webwhore lives?
Labels: announcements, friends, mundane
Sunday, March 04, 2007
I added some new (to me) blog links over in the sidebar, fixed a couple of fuck-ups, and moved a bunch of old, dead blogs to Old Mutes, Rare Updates, and Blog Casualties
Anyway, there are some fantastic chick-bloggers in that lineup for you to read
, so check them out.FYI: I don't check my stats all that often so if you've been linking to me and have a relevant and coherent blog with personality, feel free to comment so I can check out your blog and figure out if you're someone I, my readers and my members will enjoy. Also, if you know of any really splendid blogs out there just post a rec since I haven't had time to keep up on the latest and greatest bloggers.
In other geek blog news, I'm very annoyed that lately my blog's google page rank varies from anywhere between zero and six whenever I refresh. What the fuck??
Labels: announcements, blogging, links, technical
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
We're going to be gone for a couple of days shooting; today/tonight we're shooting stuff for our sites, and tomorrow/night we're part of another bizarre custom video for someone else
's client. We'll not have internet access at the location, so members -- you won't be able to spy on us.
I'm hurrying to post my members-only update for today, but of course the video blog site is NOT cooperating with me . . . grrr. Oops, there it goes. Phew!
Audacia posted a little q 'n a with me regarding her movie, The Bi Apple, so check that out here
We'll be home on Friday!
Labels: announcements, PORNOGRAPHY, webwhore insights
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
I'm uploading another unplanned long video to my members area right now so I'm going to take a break while that finishes (it takes a long time to put a long video onto a website, same as it takes a long time to download a long one as a member). We'll watch the recorded girls-night of American Idol during this break, in case you feel like spying to listen to who we're rooting for.
For voyeurs who have time to hang out during our west-coast morning, I posted this on the spycam site:
This morning while I had my morning tea I decided to drag the old laptop into bed and log into the chatroom while watching/listening to the news on television.
I think this might become a habit, but I won't be scheduling the exact time since my waking routine and morning hours vary so much; you'll just have to watch and see if you'd like to be part of my morning routine!
When I fill up my hot water bottle in the bathroom and make my tea in the kitchen, it's a pretty good sign I'll be getting into bed with my breakfast soon, so if you see me in bed with the laptop you'll know I'm probably in the chatroom.
For those of you actually taking the time to read this, I probably don't need to explain that these morning chat sessions are meant to be relaxing, casual chats, NOT strip shows or sex performances. As always, I do not fulfill requests in group chats; my morning cup of tea is one of my favorite special me-things to enjoy, so anyone who distracts from that or makes unpleasantly selfish demands will be booted and/or I will end the chat session.
Things I like to chat about: current events, music, movies, etc. I also like to hear about YOU: where you live, your hobbies and interests, etc.
So yeah . . . if you want to have a regular conversation with me online and you're already a member (and if you're available at that time, which is most convenient for my UK pals, it seems, and my guys who work for themselves and are taking lunch around that time), this will be a nice chance to catch up with each other. I'm not sure if it will become a regular tradition or not, but I definitely enjoyed myself this morning.
Believe it or not, I have some really lengthy blog entries drafted but sometimes I like to sit on those for awhile or I have a hard time finishing them. Just so you know.
Labels: announcements, mundane, pop culture, technical, webwhore insights
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Lately our internet connection has been falling out a lot, which means that our cams stop communicating with the spycam sites and we won't notice until we wake up or check or someone emails us. The connection will only go down very temporarily so we won't even notice it even if we're working at a computer since we might not be surfing at the moment and when we are, it's back up but of course has been down long enough for our cams to drop.
Anyway, I called my cable company again today and they tell me they are still working on upgrades in my area (has been going on more than a month now, I'd say) and today are even working right on our street, apparently. I'm hopeful things will be vastly improved whenever they actually complete these upgrades, but in the meantime thank you for your patience with our up-and-down cams.
When our connection falters while we're sleeping it is especially frustrating since it can mean hours of downtime until we wake up and check the cams; it's even more frustrating to me now that we're on a bit more of a night-owl schedule since if I don't wake up till 10 or 11 am on the west coast, it's afternoon or evening for lots of our fans on the east coast and in the UK and Europe when many probably don't realize it's still bedtime for us. Sigh.
Labels: announcements, spycams, technical
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Yesterday I had my yearly "well-woman" exam with my lovely doctor. For those of you who don't know what strange things happen to women during these exams, you get your breasts methodically checked for lumps and looked at for dimples (and questioned as to whether or not you are performing these examinations yourself at home on a monthly basis) and then they jack-up your vagina with a speculum to take a gander at your cervix which they then swab with a tiny bottle-brush type of thing to collect some cell samples to see if you have cancer or pre-cancerous cells. They might also test you for STD's, but I didn't do that part this year (I feel tempted to explain all the reasons why I didn't spring for that extra expense, but I'll spare you the details and assume you know that I'm a responsible person in that arena and that it just wasn't necessary this time around).
My doctor complimented me on my socks and the vigorously healthy appearance of my cervix, and during most of the exam I chatted with the nurse about the pros and cons of the Instead Cup. I left the office lubed and slightly bloody (some people spot after a pap test, and I'm one of them most of the time).
I *also* left with various prescriptions for migraine remedies. I talked to him about my headaches which I have been blowing off a little bit, mostly because I HAD classic migraines as a kid and teenager and these headaches I've been getting are NOTHING compared to those ones. My doctor seemed to think that having a headache for two days is nothing to blow off, though, so I'm going to be trying out some different things if/when another strikes AND am going to get magnesium injections (inexpensive) to try to help prevent them. And refresh my awareness of the food triggers and possibly cut back on some of the things I've been eating that have been linked to migraines. And maybe think on my stress level and ways to lower it.
Tomorrow (Super Bowl Sunday) we'll be in bed watching the game WITH (old, barely-functioning) laptop. I'll be logged in to chat with our voyeurs during commercials, and we won't record the game -- we'll watch it live with everyone else. If that sounds like fun to you, hope to see you there. We're really only watching it to see Prince.
I finally updated my free-area updates page
; I haven't done so in three months and I'm sure I lost sales because of it since it looked like I hadn't added anything new during that time (though I *did*, I just didn't post them on that free-area page). The whole page needs a redesign and it's scrolling like a son-of-a-bitch because I need to split up the pages, but whatever . . . at least people will see that I'm updating all of the time. Now if I can just maintain that every week things will be good. Anyway -- it's worth a look if you're a non-member because there are a bunch of free pics.
In other good news, we took both of our vehicles to the shop(s) (again) recently and now they are BOTH running smooth. Yay!
We have seven cams running most of the time again, and my new computer only has a few essentials left to install before it's up to par PLUS the old one is working again now that I unplugged the new mouse and plugged in THE ONLY MOUSE MY OLD COMPUTER WILL PLAY WITH without insisting on safe mode. Bizarre.
I know it's been boring in my blog lately, but things always get worse before they get better. I've just been hyperfocused on meeting some other goals; once we meet those I'll do better with things that have taken a backseat to content production.
Labels: announcements, health, mundane, sex work
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Yesterday a bottle of my newly-crowned "favorite" lube
arrived from FurryGirl's vegan sex shop
. I LOVE THAT STUFF! I've been loyal to hydra-smooth for years now, but this Hathor stuff is way better.Tucker
and I wasted very little time putting the new lube to good use; after going almost two whole weeks without actual partnered sex, my pussy REALLY needed the extra slipperiness to help ease in his big meaty sausage and even then -- OW. It hurt for a minute there. But then it stopped hurting and we enjoyed one (two?) of those elusive simultaneous orgasms. That's what happens when you're both really horny and you can only last five minutes before you come.
Okay -- I've got another chat session scheduled at 10 am (pacific) and there doesn't appear to be any problem with the chatroom this morning so all should be smooth sailing. FYI: I'm looking pretty rough, it being morning and all, so don't expect anything "sexy" (unless glasses and matted hair arouse you).
Labels: announcements, SEX, shopping
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Change of Chat Venue
CHANGE OF CHAT VENUE
There's a technical problem with SOY's chat server tonight and the tech guy doesn't know if it will be fixed soon SO I'm holding chat in my members-only area. Members: scroll down to the bottom of THIS PAGE
, click on "members only shows" and you'll have me in chat. My cam will still be broadcast on SOY, however.
Labels: announcements, spycams
Friday, January 26, 2007
Here are some images from one of my recent galleries:
Full Gallery appearing now in my Members-Only area.
Join TastyTrixie.com or SpyOnUs.com for ALL of my pics!
It's too bad that "young" clothes are so inexpensive while purchasing mature and womanly garb requires more funds. When WILL my bankbook match my age? I need my grownup-galleries to outnumber my youthful-role-play content by at LEAST two to one instead of the other way around. THREE to one, that would be PERFECT.
This weekend some or all of our cams will be down while family is visiting. My apologies for my low-level of interaction in terms of shows, email, chat, etc. I *almost* scheduled a chat session tonight, but was wise enough to decide against making that commitment. I'm feeling pretty tense and overwhelmed right now, and will probably remain so for the next few weeks until some goals are met. Our van is in the shop AGAIN (fan clutch being replaced), I have housework to do to prepare for company, and just a shitload of tasks demanding my attention. When I'm struggling to balance a lot of stuff and am focused on getting stuff done, being social is pretty much inconceivable for me. I don't just mean that I don't want to do it, I mean that I am incapable.
So. I have dirty dishes and a dirty toilet waiting for me, it's too late for me to do them tonight so they'll have to wait for morning . . . RIGHT BEFORE THE ONE SHOW I LEFT ON THE SCHEDULE, right before company comes over. Oh, won't the boys LOVE my charming attitude tomorrow!
Labels: announcements, family, money, mundane, PHOTOS, PORNOGRAPHY, spycams, webwhore insights
Thursday, January 25, 2007
We're home. I have cramps. Our internet connection has been going up and down (apparently my cable company is still doing upgrades, from what the woman on the phone said, but she seemed somewhat disoriented after eight minutes on the phone with me). Anyway, it's making it very difficult to keep our cams logged in (not that it's mattered over the past couple of days since we weren't home anyway, but now that we are I hope that I won't have to keep leaving my hot water bottle behind in bed just to make sure our connection hasn't nosedived again.
Am I TAD grumpy? Good reading on that. Happy thoughts to come later . . .
Labels: announcements, bodily functions, mundane, technical
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
We're doing another two-night shooting spree (last night and tonight) so I'm just home to post my members-only update, check on the dog, etc.
Our efficiency today has literally gone down the toilet: last night we must have eaten something bad because we both suffered nausea and explosive D (I can't spell that word and it's probably better if I don't anyway). I think the last time I had this much force behind my liquid shit was when I visited Albania in 1994.
Anyway, we had to catch up on some sleep and are off to a slow start today. My asshole is on FIRE. Be home tomorrow.
Labels: announcements, bodily functions, mundane, work
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Internet Down - Not Home Anyway
INTERNET DOWN - NOT HOME ANYWAY
We just lost our internet connection a few minutes ago; for once they actually have an explanation for the down-time, though -- they're rebuilding some stuff / making improvements so apparently our connection will be hit and miss all day (and is really slow right now and I'm not sure if it will hold up long enough for me to post this).
The long and short of it for our members is that our spycams will not be up much while they're doing this work but it's okay since we're not going to be home anyway; we're leaving in a few hours. We'll be gone for two nights shooting a bunch of photos in someone else's cute house, only coming home to check on the dog every so often.
The point is, you won't be missing much. Right now, for example, I'm downloading and editing video which means some cams are down anyway while I'm using computer resources for that. The cam that relies on the laptop is also down because we're taking the laptop with us.
On that note, my new computer showed up yesterday but I'm not actually going to get to use it for a week or two since I still need a monitor and to install a bunch of software. With our heavy shooting schedule plus shows this week and next I'm not going to have a lot of opportunities to be shopping, migrating files, and getting things ready in time for shows and updates and such.
Boring, I know.
Labels: announcements, mundane, work
Monday, October 10, 2005
Last night I dreamt that I was lactating . . . little beads of milk at the tips of my nipples, and squirty jets when I pulled/tugged on my breasts. I tried to find someone with a baby to offer myself in service as a wet nurse. I've never lactated before in real life, but pms tends to bring me these kinds of dreams.Upcoming Events for Members:
NEWS FLASH Tonight, 7-8 pm Pacific Time.
Click on the SpyOnYou link on Members-Only page.
Join TastyTrixie.com or SpyOnUs.com for access to our voyeurcams & chatroom.
Labels: announcements, dreams
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Full Galleries & vids appearing in our Members-Only areas in current & future updates.
JOIN NOW for access to ALL of our pics (full size) & vids!
I love wiggling my toes and referring to them as "piggies". I love how animated toes are, how plump and scrumptious they look, like the perfect finger food, like giant fat pale maggots roasted and eaten with relish by jungle tribesmen, their greases dripping down the feasting men's chins. Toes often look like they're stupidly straining towards survival, low-i.q. little beings struggling to escape their human attachments.
I'm not sure if I have more interest in playing with other people's feet or with having my own feet stimulated and worshipped. I don't find my own feet particularly pretty, so I'm more interested in other people's feet aesthetically, both men's and women's. Still, I have always intuitively reached out to people with my feet (which freaked out a couple of guys who were NOT footlovers and didn't appreciate having my feet thrust in their laps and faces). I like the distance my legs provide between me and another person; I enjoy sitting back and watching my playmate while I prod him with my feet and caress him with my toes. It's like two people facing each other to watch a movie projected into a space between each other, feet in hands or on genitals. The distance offers the intimacy of eye contact and a much wider, deeper visual playground.
As a kid I loved sucking my own toes . . . something about the salty flavor, I think. And as a preteen I was obsessed with trying to get my dad to kiss my toes. I know, that sounds kind of weird now, but at the time it didn't seem at all sexual to me (at least, not that I was aware of on a conscious level), although my dad must have thought it sexual because for some reason that mystified me, he vehemently refused to kiss my toes. His refusal only stiffened my resolve to force him to kiss my toes, and I would shove my bare feet in his face. "WHY, Daddy, WHY won't you kiss my toes??? Just do it ONCE and I'll stop bugging you!!" He would never explain why this simple act of affection was totally out of bounds and it drove me fucking MAD with an obnoxious combination of annoyance, confusion, and stubbornness. Daddy was easily manipulated so I was certain he'd fold under my screeching pressure, nearly kicking him in the face while I'd stick my feet in between his face and the T.V. guide or Jane's Tanks and Combat Vehicles Recognition Guide or whatever else he was trying to read.
Because Daddy almost *always* gave me my way, it's possible his refusal to kiss my feet (though he would tickle them for me, if I asked) made me want them kissed much much more than if he'd just done it. Why would he deny this simple request? It didn't make any sense, especially since he was normally so totally under my thumb.
Anyway, for those of you who have been begging for footjob action, the chocolate covered cherries shoot yielded some HOT and extra gooey video footage once Tucker
got involved. I'll be posting all of the videos to TastyTrixie.com
eventually, but right now Part I of the gallery is there, and the videos with Tucker are on TrixiesHouseboy.com
, so if you don't want to wait another second to see that, join his site or SpyOnUs.com
to get all of our sites, including Delia's
Labels: announcements, fetishes, memories, PHOTOS, PORNOGRAPHY, SEX, TURN ONS
Friday, January 14, 2005
Look, Look!! "My" Book, Book!!
LOOK, LOOK!! "MY" BOOK, BOOK!
Okay, it's only about 1/23rd "my" book, if that, but hey . . . my name is on the cover, and in good company both on the front and inside!
The editor, Maxim Jakubowski
, would never have even found my blog if it weren't for Belle
's notoriety and her link to me, so I thank them both. Speaking of books and Belle, Belle De Jour: Intimate Adventures of a London Call Girl
, is on sale now in the UK.
But let's get back to "my" book, shall we? This afternoon my mailbox was crammed with an unexpected big brown box with customs labels, and a return address stamp bearing the name of "Murder One
". Inside the cardboard package I found two THICK copies of The Mammoth Book of Sex Diaries: The Ultimate Collection of Sex Blogs
(one yankee edition and one UK edition), a thank you letter, and a cheque.
I'm not one to get out the camera for birthdays or vacations or other "special" events; the camera is almost omnipresent in our lives already so I hate dragging it out unnecessarily for purely sentimental reasons BUT . . . today I fetched the camera and thrust it into Tucker's hands so he could take
pictureS of me with my sweet little check and books. It's so dorky, but it felt momentous and I felt giddy, and years from now I want to be able to chuckle at myself, remembering the things that have given me pleasure and made me feel proud. I feel like a ten year old girl in a thirty-one year old body who just won the the district spelling bee or a blue ribbon at the county fair for her prize rooster.
Labels: accomplishments, announcements, blogging, books, links, thanksgiving
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Pink Knee Highs
PINK KNEE HIGHS
Full Gallery appearing now in my Members-Only area.
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I love the way this gallery turned out . . . very wintery. I especially love my pink SOCKS . . . it's like having pink cable knit racing stripes being painted up my legs. It feels like such a fantastic decoration to highlight the curves of calves, the bend of knees, and the plump smile of the calf rounding up under said bent knee.Upcoming Events for Members:
SHOW today 1-2 pm Pacific Time.
Click on the LIVE CAMSHOWS link on Members-Only page.
JOIN NOW for access.
An hour after my show ends, Delia
will be doing a show from 3-4 pm Pacific time and then she'll be working on iFriends
until nine tonight and chatting in the spycam chatroom as she's able.
I'd like to write more but I just don't have the time right now.
Labels: announcements, beauty standards, body parts, fetishes, PHOTOS
Friday, March 02, 2001
Becoming a Full-Time WebWhore
Thanks to my cool, encouraging fellow chathost FuzzyBunny, you're going to have an opportunity to read this blog, an irregularly kept journal detailing some of the pertinent details in the life of a VCH (video chathost).SCARY BUT TRUE!:
I like chathosting so much I requested a two month leave of absence from my real "work". I have been there over five years and am BORED. I need to do something wild . . . bohemian. . . scandalous. So I've got two months to see if I can support myself (pay for health care, taxes, etc. . . ) by "working" on iFriends
. If I can make enough money chathosting (and other related ventures), I will quit my job. If I can't, I'll go back to the mundane uncreative life of a middle-manager in a manufacturing environment. Blech! If that happens I will probably not continue chathosting but will devote myself to pursuing an MBA and climbing up the corporate ladder. Oh well, at least I will have something fun to talk about at my 10 year class reunion which will be rearing its ugly head in a matter of months.
"So what did you end up doing with *YOUR* college education?" "Me? Well I juggle phone-sex with stroking my snatch in real-time on the internet!"
My goal is to make fed ex. Every week. (for those of you out-of-the-know, iFriends Fed-ex's our paychecks to us if we make a certain amount of money).CONFESSION:
this goal was not made completely for practical ecomonic purposes. Ahem. It's actually because the Fed-Ex boy is fucking gorgeous. I thought he was going to invite himself right into my apartment last time he came over. Hehehehe. He kept standing on his tiptoes and bobbing his head up and over to peer around me and try to see into my den of vice. "I love your beaded curtains!" Wet and weak-kneed, I wanted to croon back at him, "and I love your jaunty uniform, big boy!".NIGHT PERSON:
I love working at home. Mostly because I'm a night person and I can't *STAND* waking up early in the morning. . . when I have to wake up early NOTHING goes right! The timing is all wrong! For example, right after I take a shower I have to take a dump. I have no coordination in the morning either. Curling my hair with a hot iron is *disastrous*. It's like my nerve endings haven't warmed up yet so I end up with faux hickeys on my neck where I accidentally held the curling against my skin because I was too tired to hold my arm up that high for too long and I didn't have fast enough reaction time to get the fucker off my skin before it burned me.
Or maybe I'm just uncoordinated. I was standing naked in my bathroom curling my hair the other day (it wasn't morning so I can't use that not-a-morning-person defense) and just DROPPED the curling iron right onto my tit. Yelp!!! Now I have a lovely burn on my upper breast. Beautiful. But as long as my boob isn't blistered I guess it's okay. Not aesthetically pleasing, but okay . . .LAPTOPS & COFFEE HOUSES:
Designing a pornographic website while seated in a coffee shop can be . . . difficult, to say the least. And it can be downright humiliating if the nude hooters flashing on my monitor obviously belong to MOI!
Working from home can be somewhat . . . confining . . . and LONELY! So why not drag the laptop out for a caffeine fix and do some work while people watching? Well . . . the answer is simple . . . *I* ended up being the person of choice to watch. Despite my best attempts to be inconspicuous, the seating arrangement did not allow me to have my back to a wall with no possibilities of laptop spying from either side. So I chose to huddle down into a cushy chair with the monitor pointed, well . . . towards the street-side sidewalk-bordering picture window. I swear, I thought the angle would make it impossible for any of the people outside to gawk while I dragged my T&A around on the screen.
I was SO wrong!!! An Arquette-ish tall gent in a trench coat approached me and crouched down to cushy-chair eye-level to diplomatically begin telling me with a certain amount of halting discomfort, "I'm uhh . . . . not saying you have to *STOP*, but ummm. . . I'm the assistant manager here and well . . . you did seem to be *trying* to be ummm. . . well . . . discreet but ummm. . . we can see what you're doing from outside. And I just thought you might be more comfortable if ummm. . . you moved over ummmm. . . over to a different spot? I'm not saying you have to stop but I thought you'd want to know . . ."
After being branded the slut-with-bad-judement or a complete exhibitionistic pervert, I was a little defensive. So when my glance lingered later on a cute poet-like young man and he responded to my eye contact with a sweet compliment, I fairly roared back at him, "WHAT????!!!!!". Certain that he had wandered in from outside after getting an eyeful of my nudie pics, I felt sure he hadn't said what he re-stated, oh shit, "You have really nice eyes." Still defensive, I said "Oh!!! Well I thought you said I had a really nice ass!"
The poor guy was perplexed and no longer interested in my nice eyes and apparent lack of enculturation in the subtleties of coffeehouse come-ons. He put me right in my place, "No!. You're sitting down!" Obviously all he could see of my ass was that it was sunk into the cushy chair.
Labels: announcements, friends, goals, webcam shows, webwhore insights, work