"DO YOU FUCK YOUR MEMBERS?"
Every so often viewers (particularly those in large group shows) throw this question at me, so here's the short answer:

No. I do not (physically) fuck my members, nor do I invite them to fuck me.

A few of you may feel the question itself is violatingly inappropriate, but it's actually a fair question to ask considering that a lot of genuine amateur webwhores DO fuck their members, and use their sites as an avenue to meet more people to swing and party with. Examples: Carol Cox, Princess, and Beth Morgan (to name just a few).

I've met my fair share of guys over the internet, and love the web as a tool to meet potential friends (for fucking and/or friendship), so I don't feel judgemental about people who do that. I just don't have any desire to combine my professional webwhoring with my personal slutting around (which I really don't crave much since Tucker and I moved in together).

I don't think of my own websites as giant personal ads. I like to keep it very clear what people are paying for when they join TastyTrixie.com; $19.95 a month gives members access to my photos, stories, videos, group shows, chat sessions and voyeurcams. The same twenty dollars does not under any circumstance go further to function as an application fee for access to my body. It doesn't even give people an invitation to tell me what to DO with my body myself in a virtual setting.

It's not that I don't think a lot of my members, phone customers, and private show viewers are fuckable. On the contrary, I'm sexually intrigued by many of them on individual bases. And it's not that I'm completely opposed to setting an "access" fee to my body under safe and controlled circumstances, however prostitution is (unfortunately) illegal and it's just not the job I've chosen for myself (and I have no interest in transitioning into it at this juncture).

Another problem with fucking members is that it ruins them for the things I offer online. Phone, video shows, and paysite membership often lose their charm once a guy has met a webwhore face to face. In my case it may be because I am short and goofy-looking, but in general part of the appeal of a webwhore is her ethereal nature, especially in the case of my voyeurcams. The distance is part of the charm.

Most of all though, I don't fuck my members as a matter of a) time and b) HOW MUCH money.

A) TIME:

*There is no way I could be "fair" about which members I'd fuck and not, so (for example) I'd feel badly for those across the country I didn't get to fuck while the boys and girls on the west coast might get to score with me.

*I really don't like socializing that much, and the though of having to be polite to my members (thanking them for their support, etc.) AND fuck them is just way too much work for a recluse like myself. That's part of what I loved about having lots of casual sex partners. It was so efficient. If I were to fuck my members, I'd feel tremendous pressure to be polite instead of kicking them out the door right after my orgasm.

*What I'm saying is that there are just too many people out there, and I can't fuck them all, so it's better not to open that door in the first place.

*I really enjoy working at home by myself and with Tucker, and I don't really have time for anything else or WANT to make time for anything else.

B) MONEY:

*Even if I had time to both maintain our sites AND fuck lots and lots of people, my internet presence as a webwhore is built on the foundation that my time and intimate depictions of me are valuable, and should be compensated as such. My dignity and value system would require I set a price significantly higher than membership to my site ($20 a month, no control over my time), a phone call (average price: $1.50 a minute, only gives customer invitation to direct my voice), and a private video show (upwards of $3.49 a minute, gives customer *virtual* access to my body). Allright . . . $3.49 a minute equals over $200 an hour, and I think for someone to access me live and in person would require at least twice as much as that, so we're up to $400 an hour. Tack on a substantial fee to compensate for the risks associated with doing something (ridiculously, but still) illegal and I'd have to step that up to $1000 an hour. Add on travel time (5 hours round trip) and costs to get me to Seattle and a decent hotel room (I like the W), and you have another $500 to make it really worth my while. And Tucker would have to travel with me and be nearby for safety reasons, so there you have another, say, $250. All this for one fucking hour of sex.

Listen, I'm not a $1750 an hour fuck. Seriously, I'm a lazy lay . . . it's really not worth it. And again, prostitution is not my chosen profession. I am a WEBwhore. I have nothing against prostitution (and I wish the legal system didn't either), but I like my virtuality and my relative social isolation, and I hate the idea of going through all of the screening, etc.

So. It is possible someday I might fuck a (long-time, trusted, name, address, and career verified) member or two for the novelty of it and the right price under the right circumstances, but the short answer will always be:

No. I do not fuck my members.

*****

I can see it now. People are going to be curious how far I'll take this little notion, emailing me about how they've got the $1750 and can we set it up. Just don't bother, okay? Let me put it this way, to prostitute myself for the first time would be extra EXTRA special, so that would require . . . hmmmm . . . let's see, $10k. Again, it's just not worth it and you don't have the money to throw away anyway, so my answer is NO NO NO. Don't even ask!

*****
Okay, so maybe I'm exaggerating my openness to this "fuck your members" idea. The fact is, I really have no desire to fuck my members and this journal entry is the most consideration I've ever given to it. It's not that I think my members are unworthy of fucking, it's just that there is no criteria for me to fantasize about them en masse any more than I fantasize about fucking other large groups of lumped-together, yet highly diverse, people. In general, I am not open to saying, "yeah! I'll fuck anyone as long as they belong to such-and-such group of people."

Saying, "I fuck my members" to me is as ludicrous as saying, "I'll fuck all of the members of our town's food co-op," or "I fuck great soap opera stars of the eighties", or "I'm open to fucking all of my neighbors within a five mile radius." It's not that I would never fuck anyone from one or more of those groups under the right circumstances, it's just that I am opposed to the idea of prequalifying anyone, especially anyone to whom I offer certain digital goods and services for sale (and in-person fucking is not one of them). I don't really find crowds of people exciting anyway, unless it's about ten guys in a circle jerk and I'm just watching behind some bushes or something.

*****

Okay, so there is one particular scenario in which I'm sexually open to members. Actually, in this scenario it's not really me who's open, it's Tucker. And I don't really know if he's open to it, I'm just open to opening him up to it. I personally would CONSIDER hooking up with a guy member if he was a) bi, b) as good looking as Tucker and willing to prove it in photos, c) was willing to be photographed and videotaped and appear on our websites and offer age documentation and sign model releases, and d) of course, would adhere to safety standards. Tucker doesn't seem quite as hot on the idea, but whatever. I just thought I'd throw that out there. I like it when Tucker is the slut, and I am the pervy cameraman.

*****

I used to answer questions like this by saying, "no, I promised my mom I wouldn't fuck my members". That was much simpler.
posted by Trixie at 2/03/2005 09:13:00 PM -